Please do not take any more moments for granted
                           Time is our enemy
                   who is rushing to the finish line
                              Kiss your crush
Hop on that roller coaster ride and scream your love to the world, smile when times are bad, things could be even worse, do something productive everyday and end it with a simple thanks to the skies for blessing you with another day, be greatful and watch your life drastically change for the better.

If he doesn't look at you like your the most precious thing in the world or doesn't treat you like your worth a billion bucks then darling he's not the one

Make sure he's proud to show you off to the world and loves to tell everyone how much he loves you, make sure he knows how to be a gentlemen and holds the door for you and makes sure you get home okay

If he doesn't look you in your eyes from time to time to tell you how much he loves you or makes no effort to express that love then honey walk away from that man

Know your worth and even add some change to it. Your amazing, make sure the guy you give your heart to knows that.

What is love?

I've taken my time and thought
about relationships
My past mistakes and my future goals
I put my old relationships and old feelings in a box
I burned it to ashes and wished it away
I didn't know what to do
I was lost until I finally came to the conclusion that I just Need someone who needs me.

End
  But feelings continue.

It's really sad isn't it?
I'm tired of complaining I want things to change right now, you don't want me I get it I promise I'm trying to except that,
I wanna cry now and get it over with but I know that tears only come to my eyes when I'm overwhelmed with millions of others things and I crash with all of my emotions at once,

Oh wait *


My eyes are tearing up right now because I'm thinking of the girl that you've chosen over me,
She must be prettier, I get it, trust me i do
But it's just tragic you know?
I never get exactly what I want
Something always goes wrong I always find myself back in this black whole, this blank space, this emptiness and fulfilling darkness.


No no I'm not jealous
She's really lucky though, she gets to see that smile of yours everyday and watch you dribble a basketball through your legs and show off knowing your watching him, he loves it, he loves showing off for the girls,
I just don't get it though, what is wrong with Me? People please stop it when you say looks don't really matter, Looks are what catches others attention,
"Looks" are part of the reason you chose her over me, well that and the fact that your stupid friends hate me.

I'm angry darling,
I'm angry that I'm never good enough, not for you or for anyone
I've never really done anything wrong to anyone
I'm not 100% innocent but I'm not like any other teenager
I've been through hell and I'm still finding my way back to the closest place to heaven.



I'm sorry...I'm ranting now But I need express this heartbreak, this depression, this blank space, and these cigarettes and straight ***** aren't helping.

I feel as though I changed
And this new life is amazing
But if I'm loosing myself in this change
I'd rather have my old life back
As well as myself

Things I learned about being in love:

If Its Real,

It wont Ever go away Darling.

The moment you let people's opinions about you hurt your feelings
Just know that your giving them full control over you and the way you feel about yourself.

A heartbreaker is something you swore
you'd never be
But what would you do
if I told you That a heartbreaker
is exactly
what you've become?

I'D Rather Feel Pain Then Nothing At All .

Still wanna know why they were strong enough to stay in high school and I wasn't...

Brain

Could you give me a **** break?
Your always running and scared
Why the hell are you so scared?
And sad? What did the insane world do to you that made you so closed off yet powered on?

Heart

Your sneaky I can't trust you
You make me love to easily
Do you remember my neighbors?
The sons? I've never even had a conversation with them all they do is stare at me all the time and you have me thinking they feel much more.
Leave me be please. With true emotions.


People

Stop hurting me. I know you don't care but your just making me hate the world even more, "your pushing me so further into the dark that I'm starting to see tunnels, and people who live there."

Your lips are my pain reliever.

You all say that I am very close to my deliverance

But I feel as though I am farther then ever before.

I couldn't find any candy or fruit that
Tastes sweeter than your lips.

Its that time again
That time of  night when you cant sleep
Your mind running a mile a minute
Its filled with millions of thoughts
You've got to release
Your heart and brain are working together creating
Different ways for you to let go of these feelings with
Words
And thats how us
The poets are created

You want love but you cannot give love.

If I don't get that Rush when you kiss me
If the butterflies don't come when your around...
Then does that mean your not the one?

Yearning for the night I can roll over and find your lips instead of a lousy text message
Or when I have a bad dream and your right next to me to wake me and tell me that i was dreaming so let's go make some coffee and you can tell me all about it

Your quiet but your mind is loud
Soaking up every little thing you hear or see
Studying and carefully concentrating on the creatures
The creatures functioning around you
Your the one that hides out in the big parties
Taking up the wonderful space in the corner
Taking photograpic memories of everyone in the room
Laughing drinking and forgetting there problems
You watch
And you silently wish that was you


But you have no idea
That being different is the best thing you can be
And you should feel bad for them
Cause they're not different
In fact they're all the same

It's that feeling you get when you don't exactly know what your feelings

Or maybe I loved him because I was at my worst and he still thought I was perfect.

To Have bones in your body...


                                  Tonsils in your throat,


Teeth in your mouth,


          
                                         Taste buds on your tongue,



A heart beating in your chest





And still manage to feel unbearably empty?

" Hungry fingertips anxious to feel even an inch of your soft skin "

My feelings change faster then the days go by

You all inspire me to write and you excite me with your creative minds
But when my excited fingers reach my keyboard
I think of nothing to write about
The feeling is nothing but depressing.

The fact that you feel so utterly and painfully alone, Having flashbacks and vivid dreams of what use to be

but what use to be isnt your reality so its hard to face it.
Its so hard to come to terms with the fact that you need him but he doesnt need you

You made the mistake of making him your world and loving him more then you love yourself




To Be Continued. . .

Is every mistake forgivable?

I could describe my heartbreaks in the most saddest way
But most of all in my eyes they were black and white in slow motion
A trance of darkness
Drowning in it deeper than any love I've ever witnessed
And the only question swirling in the back of mind was could I ever love again?

Wish I could make you feel my pain.

The worst part about break ups

Seeing them do the same things they use to do with you , with someone else.

I still don't understand why the people you love the most, hurt you the most.

You should only fear things you do not know.

She doesn't love anymore
Actually
She doesn't even feel anymore

You mean nothing and everything to me.

Ever want to runaway, but you have no where to go?

Don't fall in love with him.

I'm running out of pain pills for my headaches
Im getting less upset that you don't want me
The pain I felt is now numb
And it seems the rain doesn't effect my outlook anymore
Either way I'm colder than I was before
My skin doesn't warm up at the sound of your voice anymore
Things around me are quickly changing
But I'm still intact with my feelings

Forgive me for I have loved so many
I forgot the most important
Which was myself.

One thing you'll regret most of all
Is staying quiet instead of saying what you feel
Because nothing's worse then unsaid words, un expressed feelings, or a mistaken broken heart.

I'm the white spaces between every single word.

I don't know maybe it was the way you smiled at me everytime our bodies brushed one another's when we would walk side by side
Or maybe it fascinated me how much
You loved every single thing I did
And how much you inspired me to be better
Or maybe just maybe it was the fact that when every single thing seemed wrong in my life
You would figure out a way to flip every situation and make it feel right
                   And for that
I Love You

I lay in bed at night thinking ...

And thinking

Thinking

Thinking and thinking

And ****

I think to much.

Dry throat

                Thudding heart beat
Body shaking

                       Mind racing
Chaos in my body

I truly hated my name
Until my ears got the pleasure of hearing it come from your sweet lips

While sitting in my room
Only watching tv shows
I've come to the realization that they
All had the same subliminal message
they showed me that some of the people closest to you could be your enemies
Like your friends and even family

I've come to the realization that even a certain light could be a disguise of darkness
I realized that this bottle of ***** and these shot glasses of patron
Only numb this seemingly temporary pain
And could literally **** up my life

I hope you all someday come to the realization that nothing is really what it seems
So don't make a temporary decision to fulfil a desire for your demons
Cause all you'll get in return is a lifetime of regret

In you, I found myself.

I had a dream about you last night...

You were running but you didnt seem to see me

I called your name but you didn't seem to hear me

I was there all along but you never noticed me.

I know now that my dream was just a mirror reflecting the reality of my situation.

So in reality
Im always there, and you ALWAYS avoid me.