"There's a mark on the calendar of dooms day for everyone. It may happen at different times but it still comes."

He smiled a troubled one. A smile that didnt quit reach his eyes. I didn't know what he meant but He kept inching closer and closer to the edge of the cliff and my nerves were far from calm.

"Get away from the edge,  You'll fall and probably die!"

My heart literally felt like it was going to fall out of my chest. I couldn't move or grab him because both of us were going to fall. But maybe that was a risk I was willing to take. He looked back at me Carelessly,

"I don't want you to die!" I cried out.

"At one point everybody dies silly, I'm just choosing to die now"

He was nervous I could tell
His smile was shaky and his eyes watered.
"Anna." He murmured looking me straight in the eyes.
He bent down in front of me and my eyes flew wide open, he quickly took something out of his pocket and he opened the box.
I gasped at the sight in front of me
"Will You Marry Me Annabell Collins?" His voice was so hopeful I couldn't help but gasp in admiration at this man and this gorgeous huge ring. I also couldn't get over the fact that someone was asking me to be with them forever. He wanted me...Forever. Every single day for the rest of our lives he wanted to wake up next to me. I couldn't be happier.

"Yes!" I cheered. "I will marry you!."

Every single day
A battlefield of chaotic traumas erupt
A red blur of trouble finds me
God lets this happen to me for I am suppose to trust him, but how long does that trust stretch before Im broken down and all those who are suppose to stand with me are against me, and I am alone in a world full of humans

Is there any chance that you could
Look past my

Eyes

Mouth

Nose

Legs

Arms

And feet

And judge me by my heart?

You whisper my name "mercy"
In my ear and you look intently into my eyes

But I swear all I heard was "kiss me"

So I did what I was told.

I hate when music conjures up unwanted emotions.

A black and white setting is what reaches my vision
Blurred voices going back and forth

I was here and it was two of me
One stading next to him and the other me watching this all play out

His eyes were wet and red pleading me to say something
But I was speechless
needless to say a heartbreak goes a long way
Big or small
There were still things I should have said
Things like

I need you
We've connected in so many ways
You woke up a part of me that I thought never existed
I thought you would be to good to be true because your everything that I've always wanted
Your all I have, all I want
And I love you.

Now your gone and this hurts because these are things that I should have said :(

To wake up each day
Next to your warm body
And roll over to meet your lips
Those lips of which belong to me
Those lips of which have been mine since we've met
Your eyes of which tell a story of love

Oh How I Crave

Your body on top of mine
You breathe breathlessly into my ear
Sweet nothings
I Crave, I Crave
Just you

I get attached to things, places, people, You.
all things I always eventually loose.

You hide behind those auburn locks around your face
To shield yourself from the cruel world
You walk with your head held low and flat shoes, you wouldnt dare wear heels because you'd hate to cause any attention on yourself with the annoying clinking of the bad choice of shoes so you wear long sweaters and dark colors because you want the people who do see you to only see darkness, the color of your soul is what you call it
and you honestly believe that, you love to live in the shadows and one day you even laughed at yourself bitterly for loving your loneliness
You've forgotten that you were in public when you laughed and someone was watching you the entire time
He saw the way your eyes lit up when you smiled and he loved your deep dimples that shaped your face, he figured he could stare at your green doe like eyes for the rest of his life and he began to daydream about running his fingers through your hair
When you caught him staring you quickly looked away and cursed at yourself but his smile deepened noticing you cursed, he loved the idea of you having a feisty side, he liked you so much that he decided to take a seat next to you and that's when everything changed
The fact that he thought you were beautiful was incredible to you and like magic you no longer thought  the world was that cruel anymore since there were still good people like him In it,
You no longer walked in  flats anymore you began to think they were boring and out of season, you often opted for some pretty heels that clinked when you walked because you liked feeling like a supermodel walking the runway, you began to love your red locks of hair, you even decided to go to the hair salon and let them give you beach waves
Now your hair flows beautifully down your back.
Your fashion sense went from boring to fashionista every single day when you left your house you were wearing something new and gorgeous
You loved your new look, and you also deeply loved the new boy who brought all of this confidence out of you.

He was a simple minded boy
Who didnt quit understand poetry or the dangerously poetic girl who made thunderstorms only look like rain

I carry you with me like another main accessorie on my body

Your stuck to me like a leech in a ***** lake
Longing for blood

Constantly racking my brain preventing
Me from moving on to a happier place
in life

Your my past

Why cant you leave me alone and let me be
You live in my blood stream and control
My every thought

But your my past

See I tried a therapist
and I tell you what they say to me isnt
Helping

why do they try to convince me that my problem comes from deep rooted childhood memories

How can they know that if I told them my childhood was great

Well that's how I remember it

So **** the therapist thats trying to convince me that this isnt my fault

Because it is all my fault.

I knew it was true love
when we were sitting together on your house's roof top
while it drizzled and you told me that when where together it feels like where one soul split into two bodies ...

Now I'm all choked up
I have no words
Well my mind does but my mouth won't let me speak
I'm gone
I wanna leave
Go somewhere alone, darkness
A place that is nothing

Do you really want her?


Or

Are you with her because you felt lonely?

It seems as though the moon has consumed me...

I can taste your sadness on your lips.

I'd Love You Forever.

I could feel your lips upon mine one last time.

Who wanted to hear about that scary dream you had last night?
Did he kiss you slowly to savour the moment? He asked me what I wanted to be when I was older and I told him I have no idea, but when he told me his dream he asked me do I think his dream is stupid and I told him it was smart, I smiled and told him to believe in himself like I do
He smiled and kissed me
Told me I was the sweet one

have you ever met a sweet boy?
I have
He'd send me multiple messages to make sure I'm okay, he promised to never give up on me and I'm not even a fan of forever but how come he makes it sound so promising? So belivable?
He holds me like he'll never get this chance again and traces his fingertips along my body as if admiring every part of me
And when Im around him I can't ever get the stupid grin on my face to go away because he makes me this way

Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who'd  die for you, not because he hates his life because he loves his friends and family but he would give it all up just to see you live your life

Let me ask again
Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who you only knew for only a month but you can see yourself with them for the rest of your life? A boy who goes out of his way to put a smile on your face? A boy who would move mountains to see you, one who would build a raging fire to keep you warm in the cold weather and would tell you a bedtime story even though you two are both too old but it comforts you?

have you ever met a sweet boy?

"You're  too young!"


                             "You're  too old"



"You're  too wild!"
  
      
                                        "You're  super boring!"


You're  always gonna be "too much" of something to someone. Don't let them make you afraid to be yourself!

A female in her prime is the most dangerous

How can you be a thousand miles away and I still feel you here with me?

I fell into a deep angry abyss of rage.

Arguing back means you love them

Not arguing back simply means ur done fighting for a love that just isn'there anymore.

I want this to work
I want you to be a permanent person in my life
I want you to change me to be better, I want to learn from you while loving you with every piece of me, I also want to receive the same amount of love right back

But what I don't want is to be the only one trying,
Being the only one wanting this to be something you don't want it to be
I don't wanna swim out in the middle of the ocean with you in this relationship only to be left alone to drown in the middle of it.

Look away when I speak to you and I'll know that you don't care of what words roll off of my tongue,
Kiss me normally, not with eagerness and that tells me that there is no love here,
Treat me like I'm a stranger and I'll feel like an intruder in my own home,
Act like you don't care about me and the recognition will click in my head that you no longer love me,
And I am the only one loving myself.

You **** repeatedly
Every ounce of common sense
In my brain
When your lips connect with mine.

You **** slowly
Making sure you've got me
So vulnerable
That I'll be anything you want me
To be.

You **** thoughtfully
Making sure I'll always want more of you
And that's something I can't have.

You're sad and he doesn't care.

What is it about anger
That makes our fear disappear?

Why must you haunt my dreams
           & invade my mind

The saddest part is
You live three thousand miles away and you still need space.

You kissed my scars that I stubbornly placed on my skin
How could you not expect me to fall in love?

I could get anything I've ever wanted
And still feel like somethings missing.


But that's just me.

Some people just aren't wise enough to hear the powerful exsposion in your words.

I knew loving you was becoming a problem when
I realized I could no longer sleep on my own at night
I needed pain killers just to throw me into that oblivion
But sometimes,
Even that doesn't even work.

If only we could wish the bad memories away...
My mind would be pure Again.

I just wanna know how guys can use a girl
Abuse her emotionally
Engage in ****** contact
Then leave her
And doesn't feel a **** thing.

If your relationship is too perfect
You start thinking of things that aren't wrong
You began to create problems in your head that's not really serious in real life

"Is he so perfect that he's not good enough?"

Does there have to be some sort of conflict in the relationship to make "us" seem real?
To make it seem like this is really a relationship?

Guess I need to cry more

Because it didn't go out yet

He said "I Love You." Then he left

I remember when he said
"I'd Never Hurt You." Then he broke my heart

Told me he will stay committed.
" Then why are you still talking to your ex? "

You said you'd love me

But that was another lie.

You hit me
You said you'd never hurt me.

You left me,
You promised you'll never leave

You moved on
But you told me
" you were mine, and I was yours

forever. "


You Told Me Lies.

No matter your situation or circumstance you cannot stop living.
You've only got one life,
One shot to make yourself happy.
Why not do it?

Inhale

               Exhale


I watch you as you walk with your shoulders and your head held high
So much confidence you leave in your footsteps
the smile you give to the world and the 'Feeling' you leave with people in your absence
I hear the way you speak,
Your deep baritone with so wisdom in your voice like you've been living on the earth for 100 years instead of 18


You didn't think Id notice but when you were walking I saw the falter in your step,
The way your head kind of sunk low and you walked as if you had the weight of the world on your shoulders
Instead of confidence in your footsteps I saw the cigarettes in yours tracks leading to the abondoned shack where you scream your suffering to the world,
I remember hearing you speak to the people and they heard a smart man speaking but I heard a man who was confused and scared that he might not make it to see the next day,
You've been living on this cruel cruel world for 18 years but you wished that you haven't witnessed not even 1,
Your sad, your scared, your hopeless but your not alone.

Oh sweet sweet boy, how you thought you tricked the world.

I need a vacation from you
  

      To think about what I'm going to do with you.

Getting your heart broken is terrible
But don't let it ruin you
Cry about it for a week
Then get on with your life.

Boys just dont get us.