what i wouldnt give
to see you once more
to feel your arms wrapped around me
the epitome of safety

but im just here all alone
blowing away in the wind
because i dont have a you
to anchor me down

there are dreams that you grab
and drag behind you
leash pulled tight
apparently i am supposed to believe
these will all be fullfilled
but how can i know
people tend to ignore the threatening undertones
because the majority of my dreams
are nightmares

sharpened pencil to the paper
scratches of graphite and tears
i want melody, rhythm, and a beat
to fill the lonely night
i want to scream them out
saying
     i made this

i want lyrics that flow smoothly
reverberating in your soul
with just that one line
that everybody knows
means the world

but upon careful reflection
these words cant happen
i dont know the words that saved me
because im not quite there yet

It wasn't all that long ago
You said you'd never leave me
I keep asking myself why
Why I believed you
Why you changed your mind
Why you lied

It wasn't that long ago
You promised you would help me
Now I am suffering alone
Suicidal thoughts, all alone
Gashes on my leg, all alone
2 am tears, all alone

It wasn't that long ago
You were the one person I trusted
Now I don't know the word
I don't know why my friends are
I don't know what to believe in
I don't know what trust really means

It wasn't that long ago
We had a deep connection
Now only shallow words are spoken
I want to know you'll be there for me
I want to feel that love again

I want my sister back.

why is it not to speak
these words that we think
acceptable in poetry
but heaven forbid we feel them
because a couple rhymes
and the enter key
make everything alright apparently
sorry, no.