there are dreams that you grab
and drag behind you
leash pulled tight
apparently i am supposed to believe
these will all be fullfilled
but how can i know
people tend to ignore the threatening undertones
because the majority of my dreams
are nightmares

It wasn't all that long ago
You said you'd never leave me
I keep asking myself why
Why I believed you
Why you changed your mind
Why you lied

It wasn't that long ago
You promised you would help me
Now I am suffering alone
Suicidal thoughts, all alone
Gashes on my leg, all alone
2 am tears, all alone

It wasn't that long ago
You were the one person I trusted
Now I don't know the word
I don't know why my friends are
I don't know what to believe in
I don't know what trust really means

It wasn't that long ago
We had a deep connection
Now only shallow words are spoken
I want to know you'll be there for me
I want to feel that love again

I want my sister back.

sharpened pencil to the paper
scratches of graphite and tears
i want melody, rhythm, and a beat
to fill the lonely night
i want to scream them out
saying
     i made this

i want lyrics that flow smoothly
reverberating in your soul
with just that one line
that everybody knows
means the world

but upon careful reflection
these words cant happen
i dont know the words that saved me
because im not quite there yet

why is it not to speak
these words that we think
acceptable in poetry
but heaven forbid we feel them
because a couple rhymes
and the enter key
make everything alright apparently
sorry, no.

what i wouldnt give
to see you once more
to feel your arms wrapped around me
the epitome of safety

but im just here all alone
blowing away in the wind
because i dont have a you
to anchor me down