It's a blanket wrapped around your dreams.
Suffocating everything you've lived for
Removing every extreme
And replacing it with gore

You give up on everything you think is gone
But it's there, and you've left it in a pawn
Plastering on the fake smile
And swallowing all of the bile

Give up.
It whispers to you
Give up!
It yells at you

Then finally you do.
Then finally, you see the brightest light you've ever seen.
It's the beginning of peace for you
And the beginning of eternal sadness for another.

You broke my dreams
And tore open my seams
Pretended to care
But you were never really there
Held me so close
Only to let me go
Convinced me that love was real
Just so that I wouldn't heal
Said "I love you."
So you could cut through

Good-bye to the blue skies
And hello to the gray
Because you've left me here to die.
I only have one question
And that's why?

When you open your eyes for the first time
When you have your first laugh-until-you-cry
When you first climb that mountain to see the skies
It is when your friends get you high.
Laughing about the taste of the stars that you stole

When the man in the moon finally shows up at last.
When you bring your friends over to crack jokes and have a blast.
It is the weirdness of you and your friends
And the quirkiness of your trends
It's the dimming light when you say good-bye.
But always knowing that you might see them next July.

It's the spark of the fireworks and the lights of Christmas.
It is when you feel happy... for no reason.
You're just smiling for the season.
It's when you're free and full of glee.
That is the perfection.

The first time you walk on the beach
And the first time you notice what's so close, yet out of reach.
The first time you dance with him at night
And the color of his voice when he says "It's alright."
Then it's the bump of every sound wave,
Making you hold on to every word

The color of his veins, matching yours at dawn.
Being so happy, until everything is gone.
Then, it's the color of seeing him leave.
It's when you grieve.
It is when you cry yourself to sleep,
Tears running down your face
But somehow it is still your saving grace.
When you wake up, and you have nothing to say

But no matter what, you still see that day
When the pain finally leaves, and you meet them
Their colored hair so contrast to yours
It's when it becomes the warmest color.
It's the color of your dim-lighted eyes
Finally, coming back to life.

Everyday you wake up to a new day
But what they don’t realize is that it’s all the same

You look in the mirror and paint on a new face
Anything to hide the pain.

Shifting between bars to hide the scars
Drinking your emotions in bars

Anything to say "I'm okay."
But everything is still grey...

If I left today
Would you even notice that I didn't stay?
Or would you go on with your life...
Or would you even know that I was killed by my own knife?

MISSING is the first word you see on the evening news
But you just flip the channel and continue to drink your *****.
You still go to sleep that night.

Everything for you is still alright.
You're okay.
You can wake up to a new day!

But I'm still just a face on the daily news.
Another headline in the papers.
Breathing in all these poisonous vapors.

So maybe tonight I will go missing
And watch you dismissing.
But they will look and look for years.

Until one night I whisper in your ear.
"I'm dead. I'm dead."

Will that finally get it through your head?
Stop looking.

"I'm dead. I bled out. It's all over now."