Immobilized I gaze at the ceiling
Remembering the moments that led to this evening
I choke on the words I dare not say
Forced to deal with the pain that plagues me each day

Piercing each nerve
Giving way to exasperation
Resentment hangs heavy
and I feel suffocated  
Another day alone plotting my reparation
These fantasies could end my senses and reason

I wish I could inflict the same anguish upon him
Wounding his pride leaving him with nothing
If only he could feel helplessness and shame
To a degree in which he would never be the same
Only then could my hate begin to wane

Where have you been?
Who were you there with?
What is his name?
Why do I even ******* ask?
When are you going to leave?

bar bars bars bar bars bars
smoke smoke smoke cigs smoke
shot shot beer shot beer
bar bar bars bar smoke shot beer
sleep, glorious sleep.