I feel shattered
All the pieces of my heart are scattered
All of the pieces are clattered
Every bone in my body feels scathed, like it has its scars
Like the pieces of my heart cut deeper into them than any glass could
It poisoned me more than the strongest poison a woman has ever made
The broken pieces of my heart cut into the bones of my fingers and palms
I keep trying to put it back together like it was, already knowing it won't look or feel the same
The blood that flows in my Swiss cheesed heart flows with all the broken promises you never kept and all the empty and faded dreams you decided to give to someone else
I try to use my salt watered tears to weather the sharp edges on my heart down
I drink, I smoke, and have *** with different men to get over you
But it doesn't work
I feel shattered
Every bone in my body aching from the deep cuts of my broken heart

I swore I would protect you
I didn't
I was to busy to see it
I didn't pay attention
I couldn't see what was hurting you
Then I realized too late
your glass was overflowing
your plate collapsing with all the weight and the pressure
The weight that crushed your heart
The thing that flooded your soul
The boy that left your heart pulverized and your soul water damaged
I didn't know it was that bad
I wasn't able to see with all the problems in front of me
I didn't see the obvious
that you weren't okay at all
you were right and front of me and i still didn't see
the way your voice changed,
the way your clothes changed,
the way your face looked like you always got done crying,
or the weight you lost and the new hallows in your cheeks and your rib cage jutting out
I didn't see any of that and neither did anyone else
we were all caught up in our own problems to notice you
I didn't know until after you were dead what you were feeling
and I can never forgive myself for it
I cry every night because of it and can barely breathe when I remember the old you
or the you you were after he had broke your heart
and i hate myself for not being there, cause if I had you'd be here with me
happy and alive, but i was clueless and young
now I know better than to lose another friend
and now I know I'll see you again
I miss you everyday and wish I'd told you I love you

My heart of crystal glass
easy to break and easy to see though
easy to drop into a million pieces
and easy to crack open and feel the words that don't exist inside
You hold my heart in your hands
My heart beats and thumps along with yours and beats faster
you feel my heart racing and you embrace me even as I fall deeper in love with you
Your not afraid to catch me, but I'm afraid you'll walk away and decide that you don't need to or want to catch me
and that's what breaks my heart the most
losing your love for me and leaving me alone with only the earth to catch me

I love you

These waves of emotions have taken me by storm
These waves of emotions have made me forlorn
I am at times riding the waves higher than the trees
Then I plummet lower than I seemingly can be
I am drowning in the ocean, can someone rescue me
from these waves of emotion

Look deep into my soul
Through eyes of pale blue
You'll see my one hope
My child and you

Of nothing else
Am I sure
In this world and our life
Save our love for each other
As husband and wife

Beloved life we've created
And nothing more shall I crave
From this moment forward
Till I lie in my grave

Believe me my love
When I tell you this truth
That nothing can touch us
Not here in our world

The world we've created
From a love that is true
Where nothing else matters
Save me,our child and you

On the fringes of sanity
Frayed pages from a chapter
In a long forgotten book

A tale no one cares to read
Binding creased and stitching coming undone
"Read Me!" I shout, no one hears

I am not alone though
Shelves lined with thousands
No one notices until we fall

Fall from our place among the others
Then destroyed, no one realizes
We've been falling apart for years

Only after we are forever lost
Is it a "shame"

A gentle rustling
                   Breaks the silence,
                                                     THUD!!