Why didn't I have the courage to ever say no?

Please put me down

I let you take me above and beyond
Soaring through the galaxies..
You've showed me the brightest stars
and the kindest planets
You've showed me compassion
in ways I've never known
You've showed me honesty and love..

But please put me down.
Bring me back to earth.

I don't want to fall from all the way up here
I don't want to be abandoned out here..

Please bring me back,
Where I know what to expect
and even though it's less than what I deserve,
at least I will know where I stand.

Someday I will leave
the cold sea

Leave its dark quiet wake
like all the long nights
I've forgotten

I will go sleep
on the soft shoulder
of the mountains

Watch her hands
cupping the moon

Somewhere west
of these frozen sad dunes

Say goodbye to the cry of the gull
and the bluewater wind I love

that leaves me feeling so cold.

No I am not dead
I attempted suicide but unfortunately failed. I was in the hospital and therefore was unable to log onto this account. I am truly sorry if I worried anybody. Thank you all for the kind messages

~Nicole

i never realized how
beautiful you looked in the rain
how lovely it was to see
your pain erased
so quickly
weekly
i would see you with a
frown on your face
looking down as if you
were a disgrace
//
but now the rain is
falling and you're
smiling and dancing
its as if you were
cancelling all of your
sadness, hurt, and depression
you were jumping into puddles
letting the art run through
your veins it was relieving
your pain
dang
//
i was so happy,
i was glad you didnt feel so
******
i was glad that the rain
had finally came.

the sad truth is
so many people are in love and
not together

and

so many people are together
and not in love