your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

i wanna stand on the pier with her
staring out at the lake
and i wanna push her in
and then jump in behind her
she’s short
and she’s barely tall enough
for her mouth
to be above the water
i wanna hold her
her legs around my waist
and kiss her
while counting her freckles
i want to look out at the lake
look out at this town
with all the people who would stone us
and let them see us
i just wanna kiss her

you love to make me cry
to make me crawl in bed
for four days straight
and hope that i die

you’re like a **** noose,
always tryna get me to hang
but then i show up,
and you act like i’m no one to nothing

if there was a dictionary definition
of a sadist
it would be you
your name would be right there

because you ******* ******* love
to see me break down and beg
and then you kiss me
like my running mascara is the hottest thing
that you’ve ever seen.

you ditched me like a rotten berry;
like a brown banana.
you could’ve made bread out of me,
but i guess that’s too hard for you.
you can’t be bothered to waste
your flour and sugar
on something old.

i don’t wanna let myself speak
there’s honey in my mouth
and i don’t want it to leak
i wanna let it drip on my lap
that sticky sticky sap
just let it fall onto my jeans
because i hate the taste of honey
but i have to keep it in
because no one else
knows about the honey behind my teeth
it’s all sin
my thoughts and my words
every time i start to talk
the words walk
on their own
i don’t even get to stop them
and before i know it
it’s overdone
and everyone is mad
so i’m just gonna sit here
and keep my mouth filled
with honey.