I'll be a catipillar my whole life, I'm not strong enough to climb that huge tree, or go out on the limb. You are what you are & I am what I am.
I'll sit in the grass, & chew on a leaf. Admire your wings, longing to be as beautiful. As the butterflys in the spring...

Have you ever been angry?
So angry you've scared yourself.
Because for a second you saw that face staring back from within.
An immense depth fast approaching.
So absent of light the only reason you caught a glimpse was those eyes.
Beaming back at you with illumination so frightening your core began to shudder and rumble.

Crumbled down and watched this beast claw its way out.
Over rock and mortar. Through coarse cage of steel.
Those cold eyes staring down - helplessly watching.

This beast was once kept sealed.
Who gave it this key to destruction.
This shapeless fluid in motion soulless tragedy.
Black velvet drape dipped in fiery energy.
Pure hate which had been compressed for eternity.
Now concentrated and intent on wreaking havoc.

I sent my armies. I sent them all.
Countless deaths and yet I sent more.
Quick slaughter - not the painless type.
This beast they could not stall.
Thrashes of bodies. Clawed and torn.
Festering flesh flying from fallen.
Axe, Sword and Mace soaked,
dripping in warm fresh blood-pounding hate.
Shatters of armor and unrecognizable corpses.
What do I do?
It seeks me as a vessel - to be worn.
I can feel the hate changing me.
Quickly now or I'll soon deform.

I'm a player, I'm the best.
I've played you, her and the rest.
That's what you thought.
I proved you wrong when I opened my chest.
You saw me with depth, an open heart.
You gave me yours.
It was open from the start.
A heart hurt too many times.
You told me you can't take another.
A heart held together with vines.
This was the tricky part.
The first time in my life.
I saw a future of treasure.
A glimpse of this lady, my wife.
I felt safe like I was where I needed to be.
I promised my self I'd do you no harm.
To cause you pain would be to cut off my own limb.
I've been waiting all my life to find someone worthy to commit my life to.
So I committed myself to you and you threw me away.
You told me honestly what you wanted and needed.
I gave it to you and more.
But you were after what you had before.
Cling to him with guilt.
Cling to him till you rott.
Cling to him lifelessly.
Cling to him lovelessly.
Cling to him endlessly.
Until one day it all falls apart.
You've proven untrustworthy.
You've proven betrayal.
You've proven sly words.
You've used tears to get your way.
You've promoted falses so fake.
Gemini construct you might break.
You've cheated.
Me, him and your self from happiness.

Gilden, heavy blend, 400. Bleached towls, burnt noses. Bar code, sole shoes. Makes me feel the Blues. ***** mug, cute mutt.

To our eyes ,                                                                                                              That is ,                                                                                                                      What we are able to see                                                                                           Is called that endless horizon ...                                                                               One's horizon is what one is                                                                                    Able to see or to think ...                                                                                          Everyone and everything have                                                                               Their own horizons,so                                                                                              What's your horizon's limit in life ?

It'll break cause it's just plastic.
Map out a conquest, a Great Dane on my lap,
Welcome home mat, I burned with a match,
Matt died last spring, April first wasnt a joke,
May 9 is the first time I'll drop acid,
It won't go bad, I hope.

Love falls at any war                                                                                                Simply because all wars ignore love                                                                       And they replace it for hatred only ...                                                                     The mind's sound shuts down                                                                                 When a war breaks out ...                                                                                        We all become any wars' victims ...                                                                        Arms' factories get richer and                                                                                 Arms-traders get wealthy ...                                                                                    All wars are ugly ...                                                                                                   I do not like Wars anytime,anywhere,and everywhere ...                                              ___________________­_

the battle raging within me
is very hard to control
strength against strength
weakness against weakness
emotional turmoil
riding an unceasing wave
of an irrepressible anguish
building upward at an incomprehensible speed
to come crashing down
with enough force
to render me weak, begging for sleep
drained and alone
at the mercy of my mind
pleading for the strength to get through another day.

Many are prisoners
Of their own contradictions
Vacillating between  
The real and unreal
Finally the masks
Wear off
Thus revealing
The real heart
Sitting on
The pinnacle
Of ego
Smiling
Yet, frowning within
Through the lens
Of faulty perspectives
Life becomes
A nightmare