Screaming "I don't care"
At the top of my lungs
No feelings or emotions
Easily roll off my tongue

Gonna leave me?
Left alone to soak in my misery?
That's my definition of sanity

Maybe it has something to do with
Being knocked unconscious at fourteen
Taken advantage of
But I only remember in my dreams
Then I wake up with no memory

I don't understand how I'm startled so easily
A simple figure of a man,
All of a sudden, standing anywhere near me
I jump, scream and can barely breathe
Even when I know it's the man that loves me
And would never intentionally hurt me

Panic flows continuously through me
Excessive amounts of anxiety
It's not really a new thing
Not really something anyone can explain
You could guess, make assumptions or try to diagnos me
But I don't think anyone could truly understand the pain

*I'm not so sure if no emotions is really a good thing...

You're in love with him
and he’s in love with you
and it’s like a ******* tragedy
because you look at him
and see the stars and he looks at you
and see the sun but you both think
the other is just looking at the ground.

There's a hole in my heart
You know, the one you left there..
And it's eating anything that gets close
It devours, it grows
& eventually, it'll eat us whole

There's a hole in my heart
That you helped me carve
And it's at war with my soul
Over possession of my body
It wants to take me,
& take me alive.

There's a hole in my heart
That was once filled with fairy tales endings and recklessly constructed dreams
That's a reminder to me
That nothing is as it seems
And real life is filled with villains
And my only hope for a hero, is me.