How cruel my love?
Do you love too se me in pain
How shameful  
Cuz my love for you is true
And when all you do is bring me tears
How pity of you
Cuz all you do is letting me down
So naive of me
Too think, my love
You’ll change  
And every time I try to fall
I end up being on the ground
Cuz baby your aren’t there to catch me at all
How cruel my dear
I’m in love with you
But you’re only tearing me down

I saw you standing there
And I had a smile on my face
Like you were an angel
That was gone save my life
But I knew better then to look in those eyes
Cuz they only pretended that you loved me somehow
But I overlooked the truth
Cuz I was filed with lies and twisted words
Then I realized, you’re not an angel, you’re the devil
And now, I know why I believed you
Cuz you used too be God’s favorite
Till you burn it down to flams

I can’t wait for the day; you’ll just be a memory in my mind
A shadow, a ghost
I can’t wait for the day, where you don’t control me and my mind
I can’t wait for the day, where I am free from your lies
You will just be gone
Out of reach
And it won’t hurt
Not a single pain
And when I see you walk by
I will be smiling, laughing
Being me
And I know you’re gone miss it
Every single of it
Cuz you won’t have it  
Not ever

I think about it everyday and it’s been a month or so. And I see you almost everyday and my heart keeps breaking into thousands of parts, and I can’t put them together at all. And you see me, you think I’m all happy, because you keep seeing me smiling, not looking broken at all. And i want to know, have you thought about me, and the way I med you feel, or have you thought about how I write words so sad, when I’m not even sad? Or like have you read some old messages of me and you, and it makes you want too come back. And I wonder, like really wonder, did you ever loved me, or what you said about playing me, witch one is true, I still wonder. As much as time has passed, me and you haven’t said a word, makes me believe that people like you, always gone leave, and people like me always gone believe in second chances. I regret maybe forever I will do, and should‘ve never said it back, cuz’ those words come out of you mouth so easily. But I was so blind to realty, I never saw it coming. But know, you’re gone, no where to be found. And I’m hear still picking up the peace’s of my broken heart.

It’s 3:00 am. Going through all your old messages and I want too delete them, arise you from my memory, but your stuck like glue. And want to shake you off, but you keep being there not leaving my mind at all. Days like this I wished I never meet you, then maybe I wouldn’t be her, crying my eyes out, and screaming at the moon. And sometimes I wish you saw me like this, so you would feel bad for what you did, maybe then you’ll comeback to me. Then I’ll be rethinking, and suddenly I’ll be hating you, and for what you did to me, and what you have med me go through. If someday you come back, telling me you love and that you’ve been missing me, I’ll be looking straight into your eyes, I’ll be telling you the truth, yes I loved you, yes I have missed you too, and I know your gone listen to what I’m saying, and then you’re gone realized that I’m taking in past tense, something I used to do. Something I don’t anymore, and then you be realizing, it’s too late. The girl you used to know, she has changed, and she is not what you remember her to be. She is not weak, so is strong, with full of life. And she doesn’t need you in her life.

Have you ever felt lonely. Like you just want to disappear. Like no one would care if you were lost. Have you just want to be invisible, like you could see everybody, but no one see you? In this moment there are 6 billion people in the world, but no one is really there. And that moment you realize is your all alone.