I wish I could be somewhere else, be someone else..
Never again to feel the pain in my soul or run from the
darkness in my mind..
The longer I'm alone with my thoughts, the more they
pull me to the darkness.. with no light, love or life..

The scariest thing
is not being able to trust your own mind.
It is my woeful enemy
shooting me from behind.
Filled with nerves and harsh thoughts
i battle salty streaks and stomach knots.
I have no appetite and get no sleep
maybe its why i seem and feel so weak.
And while i try to understand this corruption
the anxiety and depression continue their introductions.
So theres a reason my mind and heart weep
over my broken thoughts that run so deep.
My doctor tells me this is "common"
that "others have it and are doing awesome".
But even though i know the stats
it doesn't make me feel any less like shattered glass.
And at the end this monster will take over
its slowly growing and getting closer and closer.
So dear friend, watch out for your mind
or you'll end up with a monster who is incredibly unkind.

Inside me
There's a little
Girl
Sitting in
My heart
With her head
Between her knees
And her
Heart carved out
of her chest
Inside me
There's a little
Girl
Screaming to get out
Yet begging
To hide
All
At
The
Same
Time.

I cannot let her out.
She will destroy me,
This little
Girl
Inside my
Heart.

need i...

explain away the pain

the misery that i see

through tears of acid rain

i ask of you the bitter truth

the last thing i'll ask sane

after all who placed the call

and who has more to gain

could it not grow without
the seeds of doubt

you planted in this man

the ones that i helped water

with tears of acid rain