Can't Believe It's Not Butter

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

Its not over till the fat lady sings.
Well what if I'm not done?
What if I want to stay?
What if I don't want to listen to the curvy angel?
What if I want to stay shining?
I don't want to leave,
I want to sing my own song,
I will live my own life,
On my terms and not some lades.
Thank you but,
Its not over till I say so.

#life #sings #itnotovertillthefatladysings #thankyoubutno

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

The point

Whats the point of waking up,
If you aren't lying next to me when I do?

#love #sad #sleep #wakingup

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

Scars

Saving myself,
Can't do it,
All alone,
Remember me
Smiling.

#cutting #depression #alone #scars #selfhate

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

I lied

You asked if I was okay,
I said I was just tired,
Well I lied.
You saw the butterflies,
I said it was for a friend,
Sorry I lied.
You saw my art,
I said I was drawing inspiration from around me,
Oops I lied.
You ask all the time "are you okay?",
And I always say "yeah I'm fine",
But I lie.

#cutting #depression #lying #sorry #fine

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

for you

i'm only trying for you.
i didn't want to stop
but you asked me to,
so i'm trying for you.

#selfharm

Jan 2016

Pastell dichter

butterfly project

I'll give you a butterfly and name it after me
I'll tell you not to hurt it its fragile and small
You have to wait to set it free
I know its hard but even if you fall
Don't **** the butterfly
I know it hurts
But don't be the one to make it die
So lesten to the words on paper with blood spurts
Love the butterfly like I love you
And you will get better
Because if you only knew
How much love I put in to this letter

The rules of the butterfly project.
1 Every time you feel like cutting/self harming draw a butterfly on the place you wanted to cut/hurt.
2 Name the butterfly after a loved one or someone who wants you to get better.
3 You have to let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it off.
4 If you cut/harm before the butterfly is gone you've killed it.
5 If you have more than one and you cut/ham you **** all of them.
6 If somebody else gives you a butterfly these ones are extra special you have to take good care of them.
7 Even if you don't cut/harm draw a butterfly to show support and name it after somebody you know who cuts or self harms. It could help

#cutting #hurt #gettingbetter #thebutterflyproject

Can't Believe It's Not Butter Jan 2016

Untitled

I like the feeling of control I get
When I cut in a straight line down my arm.
Never deep enough to ****,
Only seep enough to bleed

#depression #imsorry #control #selfharm #selfhate