no words are coming out
for i've suppressed it for too long
and now,
they have lost their way
and they have no way out

i admire you
for your kind heart
for your enthusiastic soul
and everything else in between

our love is sinking
its drowning
it's slowly falling apart
and no one's trying to save it

That I'm severely damaged and I want you to help,
Without coming across like I need you.

I remember the way his voice melted my heart like a paper plate melts in the microwave when u heat it for more than 6 seconds

I remember the way holding you at night was such a privilege because for those few fast moving moments I had the world and every star ever spoken into creation lying in the crease of my elbows

I once asked someone why love hurt so bad  his response was a cliche john green quote that sounded a little something like
"pain demands to be felt"
Which in my response sounded a little something like
"pain is a pain in the ***"
But it's quite true
What would love feel like without pain.

Perfect?
Because perfect seems to pleasing

I want the 3am fights about how you didn't kiss me sweet enough or the moments when I felt like loving you was too hard for me

You see you were the john to my green you were the fault in every star that the galaxy birthed because your flaws we're more beautiful than any constellation

Please don't forget the way my lips pressed gently to yours
And please don't forget that the same moon that You see at night is the same moon that I look up to praying God will save us .

And I hope it's some day soon

letting go
moving on
looking forward
these are decisions
i am willing to take

though,
i do not have the heart
a heart strong enough
to break yours
to contain the pain
or just the heart
*to let you go