We were different
Like winter and summer,
So we made our little spring
To balance it out.
But then fall came.

I don't feel here anymore.
It's as if as the seconds go by,
I'm disappearing.
Dissolving
into nothing.
And there isn't anything
I can do
to stop it.
I'm slipping
farther and
farther
away
from life,
and closer
and closer
to oblivion.

**I'm in too much pain to fight a war that isn't worth it.

As I bleed
As I drag the razor across my wrists
Over and over again
Crying and drowning in my tears
I think about what I've done and how I feel now
I feel so good
As I drag it across my wrists more and more
Loving the pain and sudden rush it gives me
As I bleed more and more my mind loses it
I do what I will regret for the rest of my afterlife
As i cut my wrist one more time
I let myself bleed out as I lay in my bed
And then I close my eyes and see darkness
I'm gone
As I still bleed..

I have made a home
for the sadness living inside me
I have fed it with my fears
it has grown strong on my doubts
in return it gave me nothing
instead taking all it could;
my smiles
my strength
my sanity
until I am left barren and empty
a shadow of myself
a crumbling shell of a house
that depression claims as home

I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR RING I AM JUST ASKING FOR YOUR LOVE.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR NAME I AM JUST ASKING FOR YOUR WORDS.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR A YEAR I AM JUST ASKING FOR A MINUTE.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR FAITH I AM JUST ASKING FOR YOUR TRUTH.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR HEART I AM JUST ASKING FOR THE WORDS WITHIN IT.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR YOUR KIDS I AM JUST ASKING FOR A SINGLE SENTANCE.

I AM NOT ASKING FOR MUCH I AM JUST ASKING FOR A LITTLE.

ALL I AM JUST ASKING FOR IS FOR YOU TO JUST SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME.

The angels that you can and cannot see
float in and out of life so gracefully;
enfold in winged embraces one by one,
celestial comforters when day is done.
Some angels take the shapes of passers-by
so you might see the Spirit in their eyes.
A smile that lifts the day from the mundane;
a kind hand up, a loving act conveyed.
The unseen angels hover in the realm
where power manifested overwhelms
our common senses. There behind the scenes
they battle fears and reinforce our dreams.
Take counsel from a humbled man, once proud;
they only enter lives when they're allowed.

I've been keeping a journal of trips I wish you'd taken with me.
An album of photos you should have been in.
A list of nights I wish you'd spent in my passenger seat.

I've been collecting all of our favorite pieces of myself in a mason jar;
Fireflies to leave by your bedside so if you wake up in the middle of the night you won't feel alone.

I know too well the hourglass purgatory that is your absence;
Frighteningly similar to the sensation of waking up in empty darkness, unable to remember falling asleep.

Don't try to be accountable of me,
if you can't even be available for me.

I wish I never met you.
If only it were so simple;
To wish away the tears I cried,
The pain that came
From missing you.

I wish I never met you.
It doomed from the start;
The reasons piled on and on,
But the final straw still
Cut like wire.

I wish I never met you.
You forced open my eyes;
Made me see that I’m broken
And soon everything else
Will follow suit.