Why do I lie in an empty bed alone when I could be lying in your arms instead
I force myself to settle for short recordings of your voice, when you could be whispering 'I love you' against my neck
I search my memory for each time your lips have kissed mine, even though they don't have to be just memories, they can be every day
I fight you, fight us
When I know I'm destined to be yours
Not just for a day, not for a month or a year
But a forever, our forever
So why do I prolong the inevitable?

Coughing
up a lung

a little leery

worse for
wear and tear

I say fill
your boots

go for it
let it ride

it's just
a cold

what
you're

not a kid

man up
pull up

your socks

get out
there
and give

'em hell

Eloquent words
falling
from the mouth of a man

make it hard not to notice the
beauty
o f h i s f a c e

As fibres stretch and pull to form
a smile

Or while brows knit together.


It is everything I can do to hold off the
burning

Under my skin –

The burning
impulse

To reach
for
his
hand

Or lean in closer.

The scent of his cologne simulating a false distance
Between us.


Twitching in my topmost disc urges me over,
Closer.

Just
a
few
inches.

C l o s e r.


With each minuscule
snap

Of the tissue lining the very tip of my spine

I find myself unable to maintain
The position that I have.

Giving in to the abductor that had been
y e a r n i n g

To
break
a w a y ,

My neck twists
To the right
While my conscious mind

U r g e s

The adductor to take over.

I thought I could swallow my fear,
But I guess you could taste it in my kiss.