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 Jul 2017 Mache
beautiful tragedy
Dear Mommy ,

I'm with a sweet guy now mama
he buys me things
takes me out to eat and makes me laugh

but sometimes he yells at me then says sorry
he's verbally abusive but he says he loves me
sometimes he makes fun of my insecurities but then says he's joking

but I love him mama
I don't know what to do

I learned this all from you mama

remember when you use to mentally abuse me then buy me things
remember when you use to make fun of me and said you were just kidding
remember when you use to hit me then said you loved me

I dont know what love is mama
all I know is what you taught me

I give him chances because even though he hurts me
he still loves me
just like you mama you hurt me but I know you love me

right?
Never mix feelings, then your kids will grow up thinking thats ok or anyone in general.

Don't put mental abuse and love together
 Jul 2017 Mache
beautiful tragedy
He says he loves you
Oh baby girl you need to take a closer look
if he also says he doesn't know what he wants
or he is trying to find himself
dont date him
because how are you going to be with a guy that isnt even sure about anything
 Jul 2017 Mache
beautiful tragedy
I honestly dont know if you really want me because you love me
or you just want ****** things
You confuse me
You say you love me
but do you really ?
You rather stay doing ***** things then be with me
when I need you  
it takes you forever to reply
but I bet if I sent you a ****
you would reply so fast
But I dont know anymore , you say you love me
but do you really love me?
you say you love me
but you dont even want to work things out
but you perfer to do "nasty things"
I dont get it
Just because I love you my heart will do anything to keep you close
for you to text me fast
and call me the cute names that you use to call me
I'll do anything to keep you holding on
or is it my mind playing me this whole time
thinking your holding on when your actually not
for some reason this feeling in the back of my head whispers to me
says "you dont deserve this , move on "
and I push it back into the darkness
maybe...maybe that voice is right
maybe I do need to move on
Even though your here now and closer now
I got what I want
I got you calling me my cute names
and texting me really fast
you telling me you love me
but for some reason I still feel empty
for some reason
I feel more distance
 Jul 2017 Mache
- JP DeVille
Let me be the first to say that I was wrong,
that I'm gonna miss you for so long,
because I know you're not ever coming back,
and yet all I can do is play the same sad track.
I would never beg for you to stay,
so I'll just miss you another day;
the clock keeps moving and I'm running out of time,
sitting here wondering if you were ever mine,
and I'm dying for you to know,
just how much I love you so.
I could measure our romance,
if you just gave me one more chance;
I'd count the pebbles on a courtyard,
or the streetlights on the boulevard,
and you'd know I love you at that amount,
with strength so much more than I can count.
I see you on the reflection of mirrors on the walls,
and on the shadows, galloping down the halls.
Will you stay with me just a little longer?
At least until I can forget,
or until I feel a little stronger,
but not strong enough to regret.
she breaks like this,
you just don't know it.

she breaks at 9 am in the dairy lane
of the nearest grocery store with
a list of what to buy and of what
to regret.

she breaks when she laughs but
it just doesn't seem right even
when the joke is so bad it's good
or her.

she breaks as she makes a call
people probably don't expect
because it's just out of the blue
and isn't her at all.

she breaks when the sun has risen
and her skin glows golden and radiant
she'd fix herself breakfast and it's the only
thing she'll attempt to fix.

she breaks when you tell her you love her
and as you treat her with revelation
but the only thing she thinks about
is how her body betrayed her.

she breaks when they call her 'pretty'
and maybe she'll appear flustered
they don't know her mirrors back home
makes her heart recoil.

she breaks when you don't see it
because she doesn't want you to
at all.

she breaks and you won't have a clue
because she doesn't even know that
she is.
lately i've been writing a lot to cope with what i feel and what i observe from around me.

she breaks, but she's alive. for her that's more than enough.
 Jul 2017 Mache
Luvanna
6 words
 Jul 2017 Mache
Luvanna
"I promise"
He lied to me, again.
6 words bear a thousand untold feelings
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