I still get chills and waves of pain
When she writes and speaks your name.
But looking back,
Reading your words
And listening to recording you made,
I reminisce and smile,
Looking through pictures
Of our happy life together,
And don't feel afraid.
You loved me more than you ever had anyone else.
Forever in my heart,
And forever in my dreams,
I pray for angles to protect you,
Through the tears and screams.
You're all alone now,
Unable to find peace,
But know in your heart,
I will always be yours.
The day you promised,
We could name our first son Oliver.
The day you reminded me,
My initials would stay the same after we married.
The day you first told me,
How much I meant.
The day you proved,
Our love was cement.
I keep you in my thoughts and dreams,
And maybe one day,
It won't end up as bad as it seems.

Love,
Mrs. VR *******br>

She goes to parties
All dressed up
With her lipstick on

There she is
All smiles and laughter
Saying hello to the boys
And giggling with the girls

One kiss, one look
And off she goes
To wherever the night
Will take her

She turns the keys
And takes off her shoes
On the mattress she lies
Her mascara no longer a lie

Do you love me?*

Which answer would you like, the truth or the lie?

You show me the effects of seeing the world only as a cruel, dark, unhappy place.
You show me what can happen to someone who treats others with little care
You show me how protecting your loved ones can eventually suffocate them
You show me how far insensitivity and anger can get you
You show me the importance of having a kind, gentle heart
You show me the value of being compassionate and considerate
You show me everything a person should be
By being someone whose grip is too strong to be calming
By being a cold, unhappy soul who does not want to attempt any tenderness
You were supposed to be my first love
But now I see you with a heavy heart
Yes, I love you
But that doesn't mean I do not feel anger

An apartment overlooking the city
Lazy Sundays, messed up sheets
Books here and there all over the room
Protein shakes and green tea
Your hands around my waist
My favorite T-shirt lost somewhere
Plans to have no plans for the day
Escaping whatever responsibility we have
Your hands fitting mine
What a perfect life

I desire you, all that you are, all that you can be, and all that you are not.

1.  She will love you more than anything, but she will grow tired of the bitter taste your words leave.

2. She will leave you and you will deny yourself the right to feel anything for her. It will **** you.

3. She will spend her nights with a pencil or pen, and you will fill yours with a different girl each time- desperately trying to find someone who's eyes look like hers.

4. No one will compare to her, but you will fail to learn that. She will be one of a kind and you are a jack of all trades. She will continue being her own and you will become just another card in the deck.

5. She will forgive you for every mistake, but she will not forget the way your words left scars on her chest.

6. All she will ever want is to feel like you fight for her, but you'll never go to bat for anything other than yourself.

7. If it would bring you back, she would apologize for every second thought and every slash of tongue- and she would mean it.

8.  She will try and reconcile as best she can, but she will always seem to forget how stubborn you are.

9. You will love her more than any other woman in your life, and she will feel the same. When she leaves, you will find yourself looking for her in everyone- but she will move on without you.

10. For her, it will always be you. You could come back in three years, and live four time zones ahead, and she will wake up at two am just to make sure you slept okay. Her arms will always be open, with your name etched into her ribs.

11. For you, she will always be stained by the bitterness of your abandonment. An abandonment you will bring upon yourself, when you decide that the girl next door is better than the one in your bed.

12. She will want to stay friends- close, but not too close; you should let her, but you won't. I feel sorry for you- everyone wants her on their side. She will love fiercely and she will support you even when you don't deserve it.

13. It doesn't matter what girls you will try and love after her because none of them will be as good. She will know your past and your future, she will love you even when your insecurities shine like headlights. She will know and she won't care.

14. Every girl you will try to love is made up of pieces of her. One will love cats, another will swim and another will be very quiet. You will search for her in every girl you meet, but you will never find her. You will never find her because she will finally run away from your headlights, your bitter words and the knives you throw at her chest.

15. When you finally realize all of this, it will be too late to catch her.