This morning,
I watered the lucky
bamboo you gave me

I kept it near me,
I let it be kissed
by the sun,
I took care of it

Not because
you asked me to,
but because I love you

Fill the saucepan with water
Fill the mind with worry
Melt the butter
Melt all the chances of a good day
Mix up the artificial cheese mix
Put on an artificial face
Pour in the noodles
As you pour away all your freedom
Mind and *** boil over
Break down
Freak out
React quickly
Change
Turn the temperature down
Stop the attacks and relax
Drain the noodles
Drain all your anxiety down the drain
Pour in the artificial cheese
Pour out the artifice me
Grab a bowl for eating
Wear it as a hat for whimsy
Spoon or fork?
How about a spork
Sits down to eat the day away
a noodle at a time

I'm not stable enough for love
I'm not kind enough for love
I'm not worthy enough for love
I'm not ready for love
Lord please save me
I don't feel human
I don't have strength
I don't belong
I don't want to live
I'm nothing but depressed
A lost case
A piece of work
A damaged ex
Will I ever turn my life around?
And see the world differently?
Like it's meant to be
Like I have a destiny
Like anyone wants me
To be here

They told me that it's all in my head
And they were right
It is all in my head...
And my heart
And my veins,
It's in my stomach
My arms and my legs
It's immobilizing my muscles
And deteriorating my skin
So yes- they were right
But they left a few things out
Not only is it in my head
It's now completely taken over every single part
That makes me
Me

This is Depression

He stares at his reflection
a monster
he says
but is he really?

the more he stares
the more they win
like white noise ringing
through his head

the person he was,
simply gone
broken down
reduced to atoms

mouth taped down
but shouting louder than ever

lost in a limbo of truth
memories fade
seasons change

'man up'
speak up
reach out
your life's a joke
no point of feeling like this?
is he really a man!

I've no need in an afterlife
As I know there is life after mine

I've no need in a god of the universe
For me a godless universe isn't any less

I long ago gave up trying to find my purpose
When I found I could make it myself

I can't believe in love at first sight
Seeing as I fall a little more in love every time we meet

And I'm hesitant to speak of true love
Since I've loved many who loved to lie

I know we aren't made evil
Because we make evil all on our own

I want to be born
as a bubble in Soda.

Rush out when the lid
is opened and jump into
the abyss!  Your liberation.

A fleeting existence!

Suicide:

S: (S)acrifice yourself
U: (U)tter no words
I : (I)n person alone
C: (C)rying silently
I : (I)nside Left with pain
D : (D)ie
E : (E)veryday