he was the sun to my sky

always welcome me with its golden rays when i open my eyes

shines bright from the heavenʼs blue

gives light to my life throughout the day.

the sun embraces me with the love it bestows,

sparkles, radiates captivating beauty

spreading glimmers oh so beautiful

leaving me breathless,

mesmerized with the celestial view.

he was the sun,

the sun with a magic ray that gives me hope to conquer my day

free my problems,

shoo my sadness,

take my sorrow away



– he was the sun to my sky,

but the sun has to leave at one point and let the darkness paint my black.

i closed my eyes.
i closed my eyes and i see darkness. blank space. grey haze. and then there’s you filling the black. standing there. your dark brown hair as messy as it’s always been. waving at me with your signature crooked smile.
i closed my eyes and i see nothing but you.

i opened my eyes.
i opened my eyes and i see colors. shaft of lights. dancing tree in the middle of a windy street. kid crying as she lost her candy. clocks ticking. cars running. cat sleeping below the chair. a group of girls laughing. flowers blooming. birds singing.
i opened my eyes and i see everything but you.

Go ahead
hold me a little longer
than usual.
You say to me,
without using any
words at all,
"it should have been me,
its still me."
Like i don't already see
those sky blue eyes
every time i close my own.
Because we're still holding
on to god knows what.
Because it is you
and it will always be you.

another day, another night
another darkness emerged
waving its hands to my soul,
calmly whispering

lady,
the love has left.

—— nothing could explain this longing in me

the gaze
becoming unclear,
and more unclear
the words
becoming empty,
and emptier
the heavy steps,
the vague touch,
the hollow promises
persistently leaving only wounds

you are still here,
but
why can't i feel you?
you are still here,
but
why can't i recognize you?
you are still here,
not leaving
but
changing
constantly making me die,
every night,
missing you.