it was like you were the drug and i was the addict
every second without you i was itching for more
for your hands on my skin, lips on my lips
our secret getaways behind an always closed door
you said i was yours, and that you really cared
your lips washed away every doubt i ever had
feeling your hand on my bare skin
made my mind hazy, but it was never bad
heated hours and whispers in my ear
sneaking kisses during class, i was your secret
holding hands when no one was watching
i really loved you, but i was your pet

~~
Sometimes Loudly
Sometimes Silently
Yellow leaves have fallen,
Becoming dry
Pale
Passing through as the grained Sound on the Street

Slowly dark flees across the evenings
What an Illusion!
What Shadows!
Has Shuffled
The Past
Present
Future

Your form that creates metaphors
And what a wonderful feel
Through out its gravity
Night dancing,
When aroma of Night-Queen
Moving in the air,
Plays with the moonlit
As if Reminds
The First love Poem

Has burned within the form
Standing to fascinate
Away, a dense bunch
Of vine Forest
Bored Air moving
Listening the murmur
Of dried leaves
In the passing wind of banner
As if Someone Calling with
My old name

Empty
Restless Heart
Today is the tune that somewhere else
Like a flow
Of a distant river melody,
Surging waves of the attack
In the Strange night of Spring

Continuous grey leaves falling
Falling on the Floor
Whispering the words on the street goes through
What an Illusion!
What Shadows!
~~
@ Musfiq us shaleheen

i try so hard to be normal. to be like all the other girls. to follow your rules and guidelines. i follow every step you take, never going out of line. i fit in your puzzle when i do what you want. and THAT is all ive ever wanted. to belong somewhere, even if i have to fight for it. even if i have to do things i don't want to for you to notice me. for you to care for me like i care for you. i am dying here beside you, while you hold her. i am crying beneath you while i pave your path so you don't fall. but i am done with being a door mat. i am through with you. but its all a bit too late because you've been done with me this whole time. who was i kidding? you didn't want me. but i need you. i need you to want me. to love me. to hold me. to touch me. to smile that smile that makes me crazy. i love who we could be, but we will never know what that is.

it was never what they did to me that hurt the most
the way they used my heart, my soul, my body
no, it was that when they got their fill they left
and what hurt the most was i knew they were going to

                                                             ­                                         and i let them

i guess a part of me hoped one of them would stay
a part of me hoped i was loveable, and not a toy
but that's all i ever was, and all ill ever be
they were never going to care, only use and steal

                                                          ­                                  continuously break me

there is never going to be a real guy
who will want to settle down with me and love me
because i want to be used and broken and torn
its who ive become because they made me this way

                                                            ­                  *loneliness always engulfing