I want to fast forward 3 years where we’ll both be in university.
Waking up next to each other and falling asleep in each other’s arms.
Being able to come home and say
“Hey baby, how was your day?”
And we’d talk about our days over diner.
I’ll kiss you and smile because I know that I am lucky to have you

Sometimes I just look at you and smile,
Because I see glimmers of the future in your eyes...
And my god I've never looked happier.

If god values good people,
Then why are
The innocents locked up and the guilty free
The crooked, rich and the sweet, poor
The heartless, full and the full hearted, empty

You remind me of the purest and simplest kind of happiness.
The kind of happiness you feel when you watch nature,
When you read a good book
Or having really good coffee after not sleeping the night before.
She is simply my happiness.

She follows the words with grace.
The happiness of being alone
Holding the key to a new reality
Is all too familiar
To this little girl

One of the things I'm haunted by
Is giving up on something that I was told
I wasn't good enough to do

I just feel so useless
You need someone who is better fit for this

I'm trying to help
Yet you are still hurting

I don't know if it's because I am not doing stuff right
Or if I am just not good enough

I really want to help you
But I get frustrated because you are still hurting

I feel hopeless
I get down because I don't know what to do

It's not your fault love
Just tell me what I can do

I can see past their hollow reassurances.
I know that they have sympathy but nothing beyond that.

Just a quick glance my way with those pitty full eyes that speak,
"You poor soul. I wish I could help you. I wish you the best in your journeys."
But they will never actually help me.
...

Standing in the middle of the street.
A bus screeches to a halt.
It stops inches away from me.
The driver looks at me with those same eyes,
But he does not go out to help me.
No one does, he just drives around me.
Some people stare at me with pity, others judgement,
But none will help me.
That's the tragedy of living,

You have to learn to pick yourself up because no one else will.

She reminds me of a cool summers breeze,
Or that feeling you get when you watch the sun set or rise.
She is the feeling of beauty and simplicity.
She is the feeling of awe and amazement that you get when you look into her eyes.
She is the air that I breath.
She is the feeling of joy when you dance around in the rain.
She is the fire that keeps you warm on a cold winter's day.
She is the very essence of my happiness,
And I love her with every piece of my heart, mind and soul.

Your smile
Your laugh
Your devilish grin
Your sense of humour
Your eyes
Your personality
Are the reason
I'm still here

And here I am
Screaming at the
Top of my lungs
Praying that someone
Will hear me

And here I am

Wrecked to the bone from something metaphysical

Drunk and High from a drug I didn't even mean to take

My mind is slowly starting to disintegrate

My soul is filled with poisoned memories of you and I

Here I am
Still in love with you.

And

There you are
Still doing you.

Sometimes she can be the hammer that pegs you down.
Don't expect her to always be her calm self.
But you must be certain about one thing and that is
She will always love you and she will always be that crowbar to dig you out

You will never know
How I feel about you
Because I feel more
Then I would ever dare to show
And more then I would ever dare to say

My history could use a change in scenery.
The ones I care about, they always leave.
The girl before you might have gotten rid of the best of me.

I push away the people that I love and care about
Because I’ve already scarred people with my past,
And now they are trapped in the darkness because of me

I have this hollowness
In my chest
No one notices it
Because I am always pretending
To be happy

When you're not around is when I feel homesick, because my house was no longer my home - you were.

Although at the moment you may not feel well and it may seem as though nothing will get better
Don't lose hope
Nothing lasts forever
Just like seasons you're just trying to get through to the next season.

The ones who have seen the worst horrors
And who are still standing tall
Are the ones who are the bravest and the most courageous

Humans often forget that we're humans
We aren't gods, we aren't goddesses
We are just that, humans
We all go through difficult times.
No one is perfect

Nothing in the universe can hurt as much as the absence of the person you love

I remember the pain
I went through
I remember the anger
I had
I remember the emotions
I felt
I remember the lies
I was told
I remember the shock of being stabbed in the back
I remember who
I was
I remember how this has shaped me into the person
I Am

I am plastered with ideologies and expectations of other people.
I am the product of everyone else's wants.
I am everything everyone wants me to be.
I am everything but me.
I am not enough.

Just because we're dating
doesn't mean that I automatically give you consent

If only you knew how much I want to be with you.
If only you knew how much you mean to me.
If only you knew how much I love you.
If only you knew how much I care for you.
If only you knew how much I am missing you.
If only you knew how great you are.
If only you knew how I feel about you
If only you knew what I'd do to be with you.
If only you knew I'd sacrifice my beating heart before I lose you.

Maybe you would start to love yourself as much as I love you.

Let them rage on things they cannot change.
We will continue to love.
Ignoring their bouts of hate.

I am in a room surrounded by family and friends,
But I still feel alone
Without you, I might as well be standing on another planet.

I thought I could be productive,
And mask my emotions with a smile on my face.
The truth is that I collapsed inside
And my accordion lungs gasped for air,
While I drowned in my own tears.

I broke your heart so carelessly
But made the pieces part of me
And now it hurts, what I've become
Because you taught me how to love
And it was me who taught you how to stop
I'm sorry for what I've done

Some nerve you have,
To break up my lonely,
And tell me you want me.
How dare you march into my heart,
Oh how rude of you,
To ruin my miserable,
And tell me I'm beautiful,
Because I wasn't looking for love,

Nobody asked you to get me attached to you.
In fact you tricked me,
And I wasn't trying to fall in love,
But girl you pushed me.
So all that I'm asking,
Is that you handle me with caution,
Because I don't give myself often,
But I guess I'll try today,

Because I've had my heart,
Broken before,
And I promised that I would never let me hurt anymore.
But I tore down my walls,
And made room for one,
So baby I'm yours.

I wasn't trying to melt this heart of iron,
But the way you hold me,
Makes the old me pass away.
I would be lying,
If I said I wasn't scared to fall again,
But if you promise me you'll catch me,
Then it's okay

Because I've had my heart,
Broken before,
And I promised that I would never let me hurt anymore.
But I tore down my walls,
And made room for one,
So baby I'm yours.

I'm mad at you