I thought I had sunk in every depth of all your parts,
It makes me sigh today with a heavy heart.
I felt nothing was left to discover,
I've failed as a friend, failed to uncover,
the untold fears,
and the unshown face
you buried for so long under that mysterious grace
You rottened under the burdening sorrow,
Was my friendship so weak, so hollow?
Was I that undeserving and off put?
Or did you think I didn't have the nerve to accept such heavy truth?
Or did you think I simply wouldn't understand?
Could all my concern be so easily forgotten, so bland?
When all you did was bleed,
You could have burst out,
instead of keeping that fake smile on, there was no need.
Why couldn't you just express it that way?
Like others would
Did you think
Even I would have disregarded you away?
Innumerable times for me you had been there,
Today I couldn't be more lonelier.
**I had always looked upto where you stood
And now I cannot connect to that friend I had
You seem to be the farthest away
Who I knew was different
In your place stands an anonymous identity under that false hood you put.
I am always there for you.