A painted image
False happiness as people tell me I'm amazing
And a pre-written set of lines to keep me going
I wish I had their humility
That I didn't rethink myself daily
That my mind didn't relapse into hate
I don't look in the mirror because I'm afraid of what I'll see
I don't stare closely at my body or I'll point out my flaws
And I force my mind to call me beautiful until I believe it again
"I wish I had your confidence"
Do you wish you had such hard relapses of hate
And to doubt your own thoughts until you wish you were so much different
This queen didn't emerge without a crumbling castle and a dominating kingdom