I don't know if i can do this.. what happened to you while you were gone...
tell me i make you cry
tell me you get sad..
you never get sad... everything feels wrong now..
you never should have talked to me....
I didn't notice her until you told me what she did
now I cant stop looking at her. checking if she has a black eye
thinking about what she did with you
it feels wrong so wrong
SO ******* WRONG
you scared me
your withdrawal temperament selling your drugs that you use habitually
doing the same thing as my dad when you see me crying and get angry
explosive rage like my dad letting me do drugs
digging a deeper hole
I dont feel safe anymore
youre unpredictable now
i know who you are now
and im not sure I like it
if we have kids im afraid you will be my dad but worse
youll be a raging drunk or addict
youll get me to be a raging drunk or addict
you wont protect me anymore
youll only protect me as much as I can protect you.
this is becoming toxic and i dont know what to do
no wonder she cheated on you for someone who beats her she had to still go down the reckless path you started her on
you think youre cool, youre dangerous
id do everything you do if you asked and ruin my life for you, again
youre the one that is crazy
you scare me, but i could never tell you that
i had a dream i cut my hair but I didnt tell you because you would like it too much.
i was no longer perfect but you are forming me into being perfect.
i will be soulless in the end and im not sure if im ready for that.