A single moment in time is significant enough to change a person
their entire universe
until it revolves around a single entity

With a gravitational pull so strong
and vibrant
it is impossible to not get ****** in

And it always starts
with a
*Hello

He grabbed my hair
and shoved his **** inside
and I cried
and when he asked if he should stop
I shook my head
because I knew if I told him to stop
he would only get angry and frustrated
so instead I laid there
and cried

and he would say
"Your crying almost makes me want to stop"

i hate you
not because you did anything wrong
but because
it hurts too much to love you

and that line between
love and hate
is so fine

I should have left Him where I found Him

I should have let Him be

I know me
better than anyone else
I know what I'm capable of

My heart is not as fragile as I once thought
but His

His heart is bandaged
and broken
full of scars
hoping for the right person to care for it

and it was not I
but I took it anyways
and used it for my own pleasures

He was going to give me the world
and I?

I only gave him two syllables

Sorry

I'm going to break your heart
shred it to pieces
and leave only ribbons

and I hate myself because of it
but I can't change how I feel
I can't even pretend anymore

I don't need a hero
or a protector
or some to catch me

But you're there for me anyways

grabbing my hand when I slip

and kissing my lips when I'm sick

stop please
because no matter how many times you promise
one day you will be gone
and I will have forgotten how to help myself

You* saw a flower proudly thriving
sitting so beautifully on its shrub
and You picked it
because You lusted for it
so You took it

kept it in a vase
enjoyed the waxy texture of its petals
admired its vibrant colors
savored the floral scent

but as soon as it wilted
You threw it away
like it meant nothing to You

and replaced it with something new
because that's how You treat flowers

*right?