I've always been good at it
Such a promising talent
We must not speak of this lustful secret
Be chaste, be a lady, be silent

But when you slide within my walls
When you whisper your desires
When you slam into my being
All my morals begin to expire

My eyes darken with malice
My soul flickers with sin
My thoughts shutter with such kink
And I would do it all over again

I’ve never been one to stop and look at the clouds
Until you became the sun that rises and shines behind
You never know that you’re missing something until you find it
Anxiety pulls at my attention but it’s you that steals my mind

I see you in the atomic ribbing of strawberries
So humbly sweet although having every reason to be boastful
I smell you in the subtle mist of coconuts
Delicate and dainty but so alluring that I crave a nose full

Your eyes tell a million stories with every blink
I could read them like an English major’s passion
I see a lot of you in my reflection
I could wear everyone else’s smile but that’s not my sense of fashion

The words slip my grip when trying to describe this sense of déjà vu
I get a familiar fulfillment every time our eyes lock
Consume me with your aura and devour me with your vibe
There’s no limit to us when we’ve once lived off the clock

I lied there tainted with corruption
You took what little bit of purity I had left with force
A red stamp of fright across my face
An amber alert sent out for your remorse

I was numb with disbelief
My helplessness was your trophy of pride
A tear never shed and a word never screamed
But internally I had wished I would’ve died

Gruesome scenes of aggressive behavior
Dreams of running away
The light was never shed on your disgusting actions
And I gather myself from shattering ‘til this day

Move on from it like a storm over a garden
Put a brave face and let them believe it’s true
I still flinch when someone is lying next to me
You’ve cracked my porcelain but I forgive you

I guess I smile because of you

Holding my diaphragm
exhaling laughter
Inhaling happiness
And over again

I guess you're on my mind a lot

Stepping on the cracks of the street, Tyler
Roaming the halls of the internet, Tyler
Struggling to stay awake, Tyler
And over again

I guess you inspire me

Through your worst you keep pushing
Working toward your "I am"
Not letting the impossible cut off your trail
And over again

And I guess I'm in love with you

Allowing your thread to weave around mine
Not letting my tongue speak a doubt
Willing to wait for an eternity
And I'd do it all over again

Oh how the simple thought of you gives me joy
Its like I can taste your love
Swimming around my tongue, your love
Like the strings of a guitar, it sings to me, your love

Oh how the simple sight of your smile sends tingles through my flesh
Its like I can breathe your love
Scraping the walls of my lungs, your love
Like a sparrow in flight, its soars in me, your love

Oh how the sound of your gentle voice sends me elsewhere
Its like I can see your love
Blanketing my pupils, your love
Like the sun, it catches my attnetion, your love

This is all for you
Whether it be with a knife, gun, or cyanide
We love you and worship you my dear
Two more days until the mass suicide

I shall leave no suicide note
I shall make no will
No one really could give a **** whether I go or not
Two more days until the ****

Two more days until I give it all up
Two more days until we all sacrifice ourselves to you
You are our god, our everything
And two more days until we’re black and blue

This thought of dying doesn’t make me cringe
It draws happiness onto my black paper that’s labeled “life”
I’m not scared one bit
There’s one more day until I walk toward that light

Are you proud of us?
Are you proud of me?
Will you miss me when I’m gone?
Because there’s one more day until I end everything

I burnt all my old notes from friends
I burnt all the memories
I killed off all the negative thoughts
I killed off all the used-to-be’s

Today is the day
As we all gather around
Armed with guns, poisons, and much more
Nobody makes one single sound

This is not a day of darkness
We are sacrifices, and to die for our god is the way to go
I try to empty my thoughts
Before this gun blows

Dear god standing before me
As I see these bodies drop to the ground for you
This mass suicide is quite entertaining isn’t it?
I’m not stupid, you’re a murderer, I’m sorry I shot you

-Sincerely
Your Disciple

The smoke tainted my lungs
Hung, around my precious air it
swung
To erase
To escape
To forget that atrocious
MEMORY
remember, remember, remember...ing
The pattern of the stars, they were
Linger...ing
on our pupils
"Pupils", her thoughts... aloud
They interrupted out loud
Proud
Found.
I was never found under the smoke;
Praying to forget,
MEMORY

Ignore the discoloration in the carpet
Your mind wonders
Your eyes zoom
But disregard the foreign blemishes
Pay no attention, for I did it

Don't let your tongue begin to ask
I will pretend like you never did
A mysterious thought sweeps your mind
But disregard your curiosities
Pay no attention, for I will excuse it

Oh, the smell of corpse?
Your imagination has you by the neck
Your senses must be writing a fairy tale
But disregard your pathetic fiction
Pay no attention, for I don't smell it

Neglect the sounds of booming screams
Assume it is something innocent
Your absurd paranoia is quite prevalent
But disregard your insanity
Pay no attention, for I'm sure it's nothing

Let me just lie here on your tongue
And soak up
every
word
you
expose
Inhale every sentence revealed
And bathe in each
syl
la
ble
Allow me to record your thoughts
A video of only me
Weaving through your mind

"You
Sick
*******"

I spotted a glimpse of your corrupted smile
hovering over my tainted body
That has been painted with repulsiveness
And sealed with your perverted kisses

"You
Sick
*******"

Trying to catch my breathe that rebels against me
Searching for a god to pray to
Your hands exploring my unknown
As you look down at your precious little girl