I'm scared by the lack of monsters under my bed.

Because if they aren't there now,

When will they be back?

Blue sky
Green grass
Yellow flowers
White clouds
Brown bark

Gray me

Bright sister
Glowing family
Sparkling friends

Dull ***** me

Fear fed my focus
on the unsettling questions,
suggestions and thoughts
which seemed to run like a film
ever projecting // never ending.

Fear fueled and seared uncertainty
into my heart
and threatened my ability
to beat //
to breathe
correctly

Soon my lungs were collapsing
breath was decreasing
which began to impair
my vision
I then started losing and missing
the pitches of clear sounds

Which now clearly suggested
I was losing my hearing
I could no longer smell
the burning
the thirst and yearning

So tasteless and speechless I
bitterly reached out for something
near me
yet struggled to touch it for the anxiety was consuming

I found myself so
incapacitated with worry and fear
-for what it might unveil
so quickly in a sense,
I had lost all of my
senses which ultimately led me
down paths // peaks // planes // and valleys

These innate abilities were stripped // ripped from my grip
someone please find me //
before I lose everything and find
it all to be permanently
a part of me...

Maybe, just maybe
the rushing waves aren't there to hurt you.
Maybe the breaking down of the rocks, the itty bitty bits of sand that fall off with every tumultuous
crashing of each wave
beating upon what is
supposed to be so strong
falls quickly in oceans of beauty, travel down streams of
deep and rich blue

I still remember
The day we've met
On the first day of summer

I still remember
How your eyes shimmer
Whenever yours met mine

I still remember
The feelings I've felt
When we started talking

I still remember
The moment when I am walking alone
And you walked with me and everything feels so right

I still remember
The warmth of your love
That makes me sweat whenever you're around

I still remember
How I cried
On the last night of summer

I still remember
The day we'd met again
How you smiled at me while holding her hand

I still remember
The joy I've felt when I first saw you
And the pain I've felt when I last saw you

I still remember
Every details of it

I still remember...
I still...
**And I wish I'd forget