As the wind whispers sweet nothings in my ear

I pause to listen, to hear 

the name of your voice drifting over the wind 
though swallows tails whose feathers have thinned



As the winter bites at the ice cold chill

I promise forever I will 

climb the tall mountain and stand by your side

sing songs of friendship and time we’ll abide

Don’t listen to darkness my lovely, my dear

the dark causes nothing but fear

your heart it is strong in my hands like a bird

the first melody that it ever has heard

I linger beside you my heart touching yours

looking out over the mist covered moors

with your hand in mine the world we’ll rule

ill save you from darkness, that wide grinning ghoul

And in moments of sorrow, and moments of pain

I’ll catch your stray teardrops, and brush away rain 

that falls from the stars on your porcelain face

I’ll be your back bone, your cast and your brace

I’ll pick up the pieces when pieces are done

and put them back to where they’ve begun

your smile is a universe, your laugh is the sun

the bird of your heart is second to none

My love stay here with me, my love do not weep

I’ll see you in morning, I’ll see you in sleep

My love it is worth it, this mountain to climb 

My love you are worth every cent, every dime

When the going gets tough love, just look to the stars 

though we may be apart love, the universe’s ours

to rule as we wish, to command as we will

so fight this long battle, keep climbing uphill 


You’ll get to the top love, and you’ll look around

and wonder how such beauty can ever be found

for after the battle, and after the war 

peace will be found, on a not so far shore

So here I am, once again
Lacking all self esteem,
And dignity and pride,
But above all things,
Lacking him.

If I don't run in his direction,
If I don't hug him when he is near,
Is because all my loving,
I keep it caged,
Suffering,
Starving,
Begging for some love,
A kiss, a smile, a look,
Anything from him.

But I keep it caged,
For its own protection,
I'll let it die,
Rot and decompose,
A dying love is easier to take,
Than his indifference.

my dead self hangs around
ash blown on the wind
a deep shadow across all paths
I may or may not choose to take
like an unwanted friend
forever trying to make friends
following me everywhere I go
but with nothing to say
just a permanent reminder
that one day one night
I will morph into total deadness.

When you promised
For better, for worse...in sickness and in health
Did you ever  think worse and sickness would look like this?

Incapacitated by nothing
No obvious illness
No missing limbs
An injury unseen
Just a ****** up mind
And floods of tears

Are you still in? You know for the lifetime clause?
I'm not ready to depart yet
Love me
Fight for me

#thisjourneyofdays

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY
SWEETEN MY
SORROW.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY
COLOR TOMORROW WITH
YOUR WINGS.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY
LEAD ME TO THE FLOWERS.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY
DECIMATE MY DESPAIR
AND DESPERATION,
ALLOW ME TO FREE FROM THIS COCOON,
YOU DID IT TOO, IT HAS TO BE POSSIBLE.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY MAKE MY SHADES INTO
PAINTINGS.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY
LET ME SLEEP ON YOUR BACK,
WRAPPED IN MOSAIC PATTERNS
AND TAKE ME TO INDIA WHILE I DREAM.

ATOMIC BUTTERFLY I'M PLEADING.
DETONATE BESIDE ME.

you need all your senses to feel it

to hear the noises, the horns
to smell the stink and parfumes
to taste spices and flavours
to feel fabrics and stones
to see colours and everywhere light

to find your balance between wealth and misery
to seek what's still to be found behind smog and the sea

Yesterday I was a Sage
Today, I am too naive

Yesterday, I had that zest
Today is too far from conquest

Yesterday, i had a realm of dreams
Today is a wave trodden castle

Yesterday i stood positive
#TodayNegative.

Incessant rain
Incessant rain
Where have you been
Yes,I did bewail
For you left my dreams
Parched and weary
With a losing appetite

Incessant rain
Incessant rain
Why did you lose sight?
Yes, I did bewail
For
You left me thirsty with nowhere to quench.
A Glory,
Only you could bring.

Incessant rain
Incessant rain
But now,
I've learned from your wake
I must learn to be still,
Not whine or wail.
I now contemplate my reasonings
That  once seemed lame.

I sing this to no one (to you who I’ll
 never know) but our eyes have met
 and in a glimpse, I saw it.
 I sing only of a moment
 caught by the breeze, as it whistled
 merrily across the water
 But for a moment there
 in a fathomless pool
 I saw it all

In whatever you do, always put family first...
People come and go, like waves along the shore,
even the closest of friends and the deepest of loves...
Money comes and continues with the same road that brought her...
The glamorous jobs you find, someday you lose or leave behind.
But your family's always the first thing you set eyes on when you open
them at your dawn, the constant in the million variations through your life
the soothing words, the inspiration, the perspiration, the aspiration
the best intentions, the crutches when you're fractured, the
reinforcement when you're almost suffering defeat,
the light in your darkness, the smile in your frown, the high of your low
and probably the only presence beside you at your old age
let alone the last tear to bless your journey to the great beyond
at your grave... treasure every moment you
spend with your family and if you ever have to choose,
always choose family and while at it keep in mind that
great family are friends and great friends are family...