Sleepless
Resisting the want to write
To ask
If he could hold me
Tight
Enough so I'd forget
The night
The lies
And the nevers...

Iced lips
And forevers
That were all in my head
Though you're the one
In bed  
Who said,
I ******* love you
All pretend....

I merely believed
The devil.....

And though it's true
The hurt is you
What I wouldn't give
To lay with you
Entwined
To laugh upon your lips
A kiss
My soul
And ever
If I did regret
It's only that
I believed you
When you said you did
And I still do

Who thought
You'd care?
But oh, it's true
You only push away
In fear ....

Whatever......

©MV

I want that night
3am
To shut him up
No need for
Pretend
Don't say it
Though I said that before
If you don't mean it
Not a single word
More...

Sidenote:
He fought me that night
Said he knew he didn't have to
That this was what he felt
And when I dismissed it
Even repeated himself....

He kissed me
Under blankets
Darkness
Without ***

Lies and pretending
The actor in his best
Role
In a drama
I'm crying tears
From rom com
To broken
I'm shattered
And feel
In all of my agony
*******
It was real
Wanting his arms
Though he
Loves me not
Still.....

©MV

Take me back to that night
So I can cover your lips
Stop you from speaking
Words and what ifs
Stop you from saying
What we both knew was true
But now has been twisted
To I never loved you

Take me back now
So I could reject
Tell you your funny
And that you'd regret
Tell you
You don't
Stop lying to me
Take me to moments
When I believed
In US,  WE

Take me back quickly
*******
And **** me
Leave me there
Living
And loving
Memory
Cause it was real
And your head isn't right
It was love
And it was more than ***
More than just midnights....

©MV

It was all in her head
She closed her eyes
Tears
Lies....

He hadn't just said
I ******* love you
He had also said
I know I don't have to
But I do
I ******* love you
He even asked her if she heard
And now ?!.....

Now, all regrets
Taking back words
He even liked poetry
That stated the same
Words said but not said
And falling
Insane....

It was too weird
But he kept her love notes
Asking for letters
Emotions she wrote
Now it was
I shouldn't of
I don't love you....

******* all *******
And he knew it too
But what could she do now?
What could she say?
So she fought back the tears
Pushed memory away...

She fell into her dreams
And woke to his smile
In that instance
In that moment
He was hers
He loved her
And love was ours....

Hours of dreams
And she wished for her death
Darkness his arms
And his kisses
All left
Only in dreams
As she, sadly,
woke again
This time

Nothing left....
All alone....

©MV

It was all in her head
The way he kissed her
Held her
That feeling
   Still burning
      In her chest
The ******* I love yous
   Lies
Taken back
  She cried

He slept
And she sat on the edge
The same one
She fell from
Holding on
Trying not to turn to dust

Dust
On the same page
Of a false memory
A stuttered heart beat
Starfucked
Incomplete

Can we pretend it was all a dream,
And you never said you didn't
You hadn't?
It was so much more
Than done......

His lips were ice
No long goodbye
He couldn't say
Stay.....

She left her heart
A reminder
In a red cap
Angel's halo
Her scent
And the soft
Slow
Pounding sound
Of her feet
On each creaky step

She didn't turn around.....

No more writing....
No more ink....

Just endless sleep
Atleast in dreams
He still loved her....
Or rather he actually did.....

*******
She still thought
It was real
Stupid
Girl
How could he love you?

© MV

I'm not pro specific races...
White, black, red
Means nothing to me
I'm pro love, life, peace
Humanity
I'm done with the negativity
Standing up
Only to be what you claim
Your against
Coming off the same
Racist
Discriminatory
And simply
Unknowingly
Adding more fuel
To hate
And giving more power
To minority
Oppression
And poverty
No
Enough of this stupudity
Humanity is the majority
Embrace individuality
Fight positively
And bring up
Your enemies
Blood drips red
On every color concrete
Don't feed into
Media
Sheep, you claim not
To ever be
But look at you
Following the crowd
You against me
Same opportunity
Same hood
Same class
Same bowl
We used to eat
I was the minority
And yet cloaked eyes
You speak
Come further than where
Your expected to be
Take another look
Inside
And free
Your mind from the evils
Of a hyped up personality
We are all one
One religion
One race
One humanity....

I'm done ....

©MV (drops mic)

Twenty till two
I was his
And he knew
As did I
With every raw
Slow kiss
With every still
Slow ******
That with every beat
Every breath
Every bite
And every gasp
We were so much more
Than lovers
Than souls
Than words

Than poetry .....

We were an eternity....
Starfucked....
A four lettered catastrophe....
We were love
We were lust
We were ever...

Every lifetime....
Till the next time...

I was his
He was mine
We were
Memory.....

©MV