no matter how I try
to consider things
in a favorable light
there is no way
your dark heart
will ever turn bright

You know those kind of nights
when he did something to you
and for some unexplainable reasons
you thought your heart was going to bursts
right before his eyes
because it was full of happiness
then your body heat will horribly rose up
and there's only one thing you could do
to decrease the sparks within you;
you kissed him—deeply—repeatedly
*simply because he loves you too much

I wonder if there will come a time
when you finally aware of what you make me feel
how I always consider myself as a fool for you
and the way you twist your words hurts my bones

do you even hear my tears dropping down my cheeks?
do you even see the frown I make beneath my smile?
do you even want to know?
do you even care to ask?

but when that moment arrived,
I swear it will be too late
I will be walking away too far
and you won't be able to even grasp my shadow

somehow I wish to plant tiny cameras
surrounding you and your every movement
just to capture your sweet little crooked smile,
your laughter that aches you belly bottom,
your peaceful sleeping face at midnight,
and store them inside my heart's memory card

You are the only guy
who never makes me shy
cause you tell me I'm beautiful
before I use my make up tools
you always say my body is warm
and it belongs inside your arms
you love kissing my bare lips
yet appreciate when I paint it red as tulips
whether I'm dressed or undress
you stare at me like I'm the best