There is a price to pay, I know not when;
the darkness falls and more but then:
forever will you walk alone,
Frightened, discarded, soaked to bone.
Bow your head and cross your hands,
close those eyes, dream of distant lands.
Away from shadow, far from harm,
I see you there for this is my alarm,
side by side yet miles apart,
we'll fight from soul and deep in heart.
You'll know the mourning deep inside,
search your world but far and wide,
waiting for that final race,
Where arms are thrown and hold embrace.

In a heartless world
of on-demand,
You and I
had better plans.

We spoke our dreams,
And we fought the man.
None of my friends,
could understand.  

When it came to what it was,
that we'd do,
we never really fully ever,
thought it through.

It always ended up,
With me and you,

Just laughing at each other.


So very many times,
Out in the cold,
Your bright red honda,
with the windows rolled.

You'd nuzzle right in,
so warm and bold,
A deep gentle calm,
to my roaming soul.

Yes I held you tight,
and I let you know,
That all of our memories
would never go.

You'd lean in,
we'd seize our moment,
Both of us,
dying to hold it.

I'd kiss your head,
Wish you a safe ride,
Watched you go,
as I walked inside.

I caught every kiss
that you blew my way,
Each and Every time
As you pulled away.

There is not a word,
that I can say,
used to describe,
How I feel today

Never thought that,
I would see this day,
When it's you and I,
On our separate ways.

Just another burn hole,
In the page,
Just another wrinkle,
Showing age.

it's a beautiful thing

That was supposed to be me
I'm supposed to be the one with you right now
Calling you baby and holding your hand
Kissing your cheek and making you laugh

I remember when it was
When you were faithful and you cared
I remember how sweet you were
I remember when you turned

Was it your friends?
Or was I just not good enough?
It's times like this when I miss you
I was tempted with the thought of you and now I'm relapsing

I have a love
I have someone better
But still I sit here in tears
Wishing I could still call you my dear

And I know if he read this, he'd wonder why
Why am I not satisfied?
Well, I am. He's more than enough
I just can't function through this brokenness sometimes

I don't want you back..
I just want to know you
I just want to see your face and still be ok
I don't want you back

It hurts to think about it
It still gives me nightmares sometimes
And still stings my chest
But I'm not giving in

I won't text you no matter how bad I want to
I won't say I love you even though it feels like routine
I won't assume to position of my arms around you
I won't break and do what you want me to

But it's so hard
When I still have your number
Still want to run to you and hold you
Still wish to be your everything

I want to hurt you more though
For all this pain you've caused
And for how you've broken my trust
And left me damaged

I just wish I'd never asked your name
Never given you a hug
Or gave you my number
Never put up with the racist laughter

I stood up for you
You knew I was true
And you used it
Why didn't I see it?

I still lie to myself
Saying if I were to see you today
That you'd want me
You'd still need me

I'm too stupid
Too broken to know
But my heart now belongs to another
And he's putting it back together