I can't stay away from you
I want you
I can't live without you
I need you
I can't wake up without you
I want you
I can't get out of bed without you
I need you
I can't function at all without you
I want you
I can't go to sleep without you
I need you

I AM SO SICK OF THIS!!!
I WISH I COULD PUSH YOU AWAY!!!
I WISH I COULD BE WITHOUT YOU!!!
but yelling at you does no good because there you are, in my little tin, waiting for me to open it again:
******.

I'm losing myself again, wondering where I went. Wondering who I am without HIM. He takes my money, gives me sanity, dulls my emotions, lets me deal with "life". This is the end, as the tears won't cease, going away for 30 days, not ready for this, but what choice do I have.
Rehab.

I whisper-walk behind the wall
Drown myself in bleak mans falls
I left Home to make my life better
I only got an Emotional Winter
Gray clouds above me
Run away with the snow
My heart is dried out and no tears left to cry
I would die if you left me alone to fall
But you won't leave me alone at all
A kindred spirit, a kind soul
That's what I thought before
Now I'm not so sure. . .

Do you remember our first kiss? I do.
Watching the time tick down in your
Daddy's car. At exactly midnight you
leaned over and made your move. Do you still think about it? . . . Cuz I do.

Walkin away from you was the hardest
thing I ever did.
Having to go on lonely knowing you'd get over it. Do you remember the few times when you spoke my name so tenderly? I know its hard for you to remember me. I hate you but I, love you- I do.

The perfect man does not exist -
No matter what they say.
Because every man
Has the tendency to walk away.