Is your life one difficult thing right after another.
Do you feel drain one moment , then renewal the next.
Do you struggle with life, yet still here you are alive.
Christ has special callings for some people here.
He uses them to help others so do not despair my friend.
But I know that really we have a job to encourage others.
To be use to inspire others as well, I see it in all people.
Except maybe people who purpose is to discourage people.
But isn't the encouraging and inspiring others a special calling.
I love you all, God bless you as well my God family here.

The sea beneath
the sea within
the hollow feelings
from there to then

As the thought breaks
parts the clouds
As the light comes
within allowed

I touch your lips
you gentle thing
you touch my heart
oh hear it sing

The sun beneath
as far as be
the sea within
sets sails on wing

There go no
red day dawnings
there are no
red flag warnings

Only reflections on the iris
of the eye
only purest warmth
over oceans glide

being dead inside is a paradox.
a contradiction. polar opposites.
you feel nothing at all, but at the same time you're feeling something.
there are no intense emotions yet, feeling so dead inside is an intense emotion in itself.
you're comforted by the fact that you won't feel any bad emotions but
at the same time, you're dissatisfied because you won't feel any good emotions either.
being dead inside is great when your lover leaves you, when your friend dies, when everything comes crumbling down at once ... because you won't feel it as much.
being dead inside is terrible when your lover tries to kiss you, when your friend invites you on a vacation, when everything starts coming together ... because you won't feel it as much either.