writing is what keeps me sane.
I keep fighting these unfair games with my brain
the commotion in my head so loud I can barely think straight
sleepless nights and empty walls
my mind is an endless hall
chaos, madness, hurricanes
I can't seem to turn away
maybe I'm the one to blame.

I'm stuck in a house that I can't call home.
it just feels so cold
when I get home and close the door.
thoughts flood my brain
I can't help but feel so alone.
As if the friends I was just with
weren't there at all.
Like its been that way
all along.
Returning to the hole I've spent years digging for myself.
I feel like a stranger in my own dome.

play me like a piano
so I could love you like my favorite song
synthesize a melody for me
while I crystalize my memory
sorry I overanalyzed this
thought we might summarize
the glamourized masks we put on.

Fear of failure eats me alive
Even if im not drowning
Feels like everyone is frowning
I don't know what they want
But I know I can't give it to them
I don't have what is takes
To bring them snowflakes
In the middle of june

Waves are breaking down my walls,
But this time im not afraid
The water is warm
Instead of cold
Im ready to learn
How to swim
In the midst of chaos
To survive every storm
That drowns the halls