I am bending in the wind,
I am cracking at the roots,
Drowning in old reboots.

All I know is what I don’t want,
But all I do want is to be proven wrong.
Introduce me to a different song.

I am blending into the trees,
No longer recognized by thee.
Barely floating with my head above sea,
Bearing anchors on each my ankles.

All I can see is who I used to be,
fragments of what once was, just bleeding at the seams.
Just trying to march to my own beat, but finding it easier to flee.

So I go swimming with the fishes.
Everything quiet, everything at peace.
Once easily deceived by shadows of wishes that would never be.
Now only one shark is left swimming at sea.

I feel like I'm being pulled in every direction
My life is a cluttered mess
I feel too much emotion and I start to second guess
I'm stubborn, hard headed
And over-sensitive at best
My tongue moves too fast
But my mind moves too slow
The words that escape become an unfriendly foe
The layers begin to crumble and the doors begin to unfold
I always ruin everything, leaving nothing to hold
I don't know which way to go or where I'll be at next
I have a lot to get off my chest but my mind needs some rest
The words I try to say aren't the ones I really meant
This is all just one giant mess

I'm stubborn and clumsy
Not just with my actions,
With my words
I'm sensitive and sweet
But I'll play your words on repeat
I love like a sunset
But am sad like the moon
Surrounded by stars
But still alone in a crowded room
Half way to Mars

If I had to pick two colors, I'd have to pick black and gold
The way you laughed, the way you spoke
You beam colors,
Black and gold
No matter where I go you're somewhere in my soul
I don't know why I can't let you go
Millions of miles apart
Still the color changes in my heart
Black and gold
It wasn't just a kiss with his hands down her waist and hips
"I love you, I can explain this"
Down with this ship.
Shattered to a million pieces
No more amends and peaces
Now my heart feels empty, my heart feels black
Trapped with all the things I lack
Your love made me erode
And if our love had two colors
They'd be *black and gold

The roses you once planted in my soul
Grow thorns everywhere I go
They say it takes 21 days to kick a habit
But they must not have met you
For you are more than just an absence
You demand to be felt
And I'm sorry about the ****** cards we were dealt
They say it takes 21 days to kick a habit
21 days and you're not an addict
But still you melt my heart like acid
And I still don't know what happened

I'll celebrate today
Like I'm meant to stay
I'll laugh and play
Along, accepting broken praise
Please still know
I'll be thinking of you, my favorite foe
Surrounded by faces and voices
But still I miss your noises
Shouldn't want to spend my time with you
Shouldn't give in to your deception
With you, I always make an exception
It started with a stumble
Suddenly I was falling in with your rubble
Just a fragment of your heart
A sliver of your chest
Whatever happened to the rest?
Happy birthday to me
And all I should be
But still I'm wishing
I could be celebrating with thee

They say they see a light
Deep in my tired eyes
A spark still inside
Waiting to ignite
But still I feel so little
Like I'm lost and stuck in the middle
My flowers can't bloom
Trapped in a golden tomb
I need the sun
For the daisies to grow in my lungs
I need the sun
For the sunflowers on my tongue
I can't remember how I got this far
I've been lost for months, weeks, maybe days
Lost in your trance
Stuck in a daze
Your eyes tell a story
One your mouth can't convey
Never having the right words to say
I disappeared in your quiet eyes
For they have nothing to hide
But won't you please show me
The way back
To my
Quiet light?