The words you said in anger
linger in my mind.
Numbness fills my body
why are you so unkind?
Passing blame and spreading shame
is not your intended aim.
But my heart is cold, its growing old,
The force to not fold today.
Your apologies although sincere , have out grown their first premiere.
Thanks for the effort, to fixed what you have done.
But the truth is, sorry doesn't cut it ***.

I wake up every day with your smile on my mind.
It's a handsome sight to behold, so soft and so kind.
Your humour lifts my day to day worries
You never seem to be stress or in much of a hurry.
I have you to guide me through my troubles and fears.
I'll always be here for you through your struggles and tears.
Your my forever, my eternity, my love of my life.
Who give me a reason to fight to survive.
I'll be here for you no matter the dilemma.
You will always be first on my agenda.
I love you prince till the last breath is taken
And even then my love won't be shaken.

Depression makes the world it's play ground.
It enables you to realise how easy it is to die at every corner.
To "trip" down the stairs.
To "not" see the car coming.
To "accidentally" take a few to many pills.
it opens your eyes to possibilities others dont like to see.

The wall changes as I stare
into dark faces , twisted creations of my mind.
All due to despair,
Anxiety takes my prime.

We cut ourselves out of sadness,
Out of shame
Out of anger
Or confusion
We cry our self to sleep
And wake up to cry some more
We stave ourselves to point of fainting or worse
And what for RELIEF
No , to gain more pain ,sadness, shame , anger, confusions , lack of sleep, tears, anorexia , disappointment and
Scares to remind us of the troubles that plague our soul.