Nothing left to feel
its been cried, raged, drank, Screamed out.
what feeling is this?

I threw myself up against the wall
Because I needed to feel something.
I squeezed my eyes shut tight              
                    Because
                      I needed your fingers in my hair,
          The weight of your thighs
                       On mine,
The tip of my minty tongue on your lip.      
The quivering of your core and your breath
                        Tangled with my own
When I speak to you without words
and without sounds.
Because I needed            
*To just feel.

I used to believe
People lived forever
Unaging
Ungrowing
I had no clue
I was young
Frightened by death
Suddenly
I'm glad
There's an end

I'm sorry
If I've ever hurt you

I've never been gentle

I'm sorry
If I've ever mistreated you

I've never been too nice

I'm sorry
If I've ever degraded you

I've never been understanding

I'm sorry
If I've never made you happy

I've always tried

I'm sorry
If I've never measured up

I've always attempted to

I'm sorry
If I've never been good enough

I've always been a failure