I do not know
If I could love her
**Again

Writing has become difficult
Because my emotions have settled
Why is it that we write better
When we are sad and betrayed
Or falling in love
Our heart filled with so much

For us that are in the middle
We are torn apart
what emotions really stand out
It's almost like being numb
I'll sacrifice my writing though
A smile is what I want

Your heart belongs to him
His heart belongs to another
My heart belonged to you.
You pushed me away
He is pushing you away
In the end you're alone

I would've given you everything
He will give you heartache
Now you have neither of us
You told me to leave you alone
To give you all the space you need
That space has now become a galaxy
Each day memories of us fade
Into the vast emptiness of space

This morning we walked in
The hospital already rumbling
Both red-eyed and waking up
In our passing we locked eyes
Became lost in the moment
Slowing we kept walking
Though never stopping
Our minds never leaving
That encounter


The patients draining us
In a few short moments
Our souls would connect once again
This time though a fire would start

I heard footsteps behind me
A soft voice called out
"Hey, do I know you?"
Surprised I turned around
Expecting only another needy patient
Pleasantly I was caught off guard
She laughed as she caught up

Meeting once again
Our bodies almost touching
She shyly touch my arm
Taking a chance I embraced her
My hand reached her cheek

I whispered into her ear
"Meet me at this location at 4"
I ran my hand through her hair
Kissed her soft lips
She gasped in shock
Muttering only a stuttered "OK"

That night we became one
Giving into our delights
Our souls becoming intertwined
As we lay in bed she whispered
"What is this?"
Smiling I kissed her deeply
"The beginning of a new chapter"

When you left
I was lost
Though I gained freedom

Tonight is the final night
Tomorrow brings a new adventure
I'm at peace with this choice
Releasing me from the past
Diving head first into the unknown

This rebirth will be the end
The end opens up a new chapter
Pages blank and waiting
Words free to be written
No restraints to hold me back

A freedom I desperately need
Taking what I want
Making my life mine once again
I will be the author

That ember who stubbornly wouldn't die
No amount of water could put it out
Has now been extinguished
Through a lie whispered
Trust was broken
Caused it's last light to be emitted
No inferno can ignite it
When it is nothing more than ashes
I wish deep down I never see you
Goodbye forever