I am in distraught
all of these monsters has to be fought
the answers must be sought

I am trapped in this horrible realm
just a glimpse of the light
and maybe I could win this fight
please hear my plight

I wonder for how long can I bear this sadness
give me a dose of dopamine
you are my daily medicine
you are the cure to my cruel reality
*so please stay with me

There's this thick border that separates you from them
but I can never explain what it is
all I can say is that I feel it inside of my heart that
you stand out from the rest
and for me you are the best!

They said that the stars won't shine without darkness

I suddenly remember you telling me how responsible I am
but don't you think that it is because you aren't responsible
that is why I'm being responsible for you?

You may not be the one shining today but I always tell the world
that who I am now is all because of **you

Oh please stop complaining
I don't even care

This world is full of cruelty
so don't act surprised
just expect it from me

I am done being too naïve
I am done with feeling stupid all the time
and most of all I am tired of all your
unreasonable ways

I am tired of dealing with your nonsense

This time, if you want competition
I will give it to you
and I will show you what I am capable of

This is just the start
you'll see more of me as the time goes by

But you'll never see the real me anymore
because my barriers are stronger and can never
be knocked out by some unworthy people

Don't let your eyes deceive you,
you are seeing through a filter
not in every perception
and the truth wont show itself
unless it is being sought
not just with unreliable thoughts.

It was brief but it has marked a place inside of me.
Although you're far, I know you won't ever forget and neither would I.
All I'm saying is that it just really feels like
walking over shards of glass that represents my broken soul
for I lost the other half that makes up of it.
It was the past that I have been fearing and yet I am here but I guess I need to fight fear with courage.
Just lend me all your strength and I shall fight my way out of it.
I am going back into your arms once I survive.
As I am going to a different path to fix my mistakes, I hope you don't forget about me and I wish to see you at the finish line.

My anxiety gets worse
and I think I'm about to burst
every time you are near
and the pain I can never even bear.