It's valentine’s day.
But it’s not like I care.
The smell of teenage “love”
Is filling the air.
Once again I’m alone
In my silent despair.
All I really want
Is for someone to care.
For someone to see
I'm not as bad as before,
For someone to believe
I'm not a monster anymore.

I don't want to talk,
Please, don't make me speak.
I don't want to stand,
My body's too weak.

I feel like I'm falling
down ten thousand feet.
Please, just let me sit down,
I'm safe here, in my seat.

I'm safe here, in the shadows,
this is where I belong.
Here, I can try, and succeed,
Here, nothing feels wrong.

Wait, no...
Don't ask me those questions,
My answers won't be right.
I'm afraid I might mention
what happens at night...

The voices, the sounds,
but nobody's around...
I'm led to the ocean,
Please, don't let me drown.

I'm held down,
I'm drowning,
I just can't resurface.
I know I'm nothing astounding,
I'm just looking for purpose.

You made me believe that wishes came true,
but I've wasted all my shooting stars on you.
Now look, you're not here, you've left me forever
I can't stop the tears, I can't keep it together.

I'm afraid of myself, of the things I might do,
I'm afraid of my heart, and that's because of you.
I'm afraid to let anyone get close enough to hurt me,
I just hope you're the last one who's able to burn me.

I burst into flames, and went down into ashes,
I'm afraid of my brain, and my chemical crashes.

I remember the last night that we both watched the sky,
We saw one speeding light, we pointed as it soared by.
That night, on that star, my one wish was you.
You left me shortly after, I hope your wish came true.

I'm not sleeping
I'm not eating
and I don't think my heart is beating
My head is light
My vision's blurred
The words I try to say are slurred
I'm drunk, I'm high
I'm ******, I'm wrecked
Please wrap your hands around my neck
choke all this "life" out of me
while I apologize for trying to breathe