I miss you everyday
Not much as I can say
I love you more than a friend
A love that will never end

I miss you everyday
I miss watching you play
Your happy eyes that speak
Your looks that get me weak

I miss you everyday
I wish you would stay
Now you're in my passenger seat
Thinking we're just going out to eat

This hurts like hell
I have so many things to tell
You're staring at the window
My tears start to get shallow

This hurts like hell
I can't let go, my sweet Belle
You look at me with a smile in you eyes
But I know the pain in disguise.

This hurts like hell
Catching you every time you fell
You were with me all these years
But we have to let go of our fears

I can't watch you die
All i can do is cry
I drop you off by the vet,
Telling you "You'll always be my favorite pet."

I can't watch you die
But they told me to give it a try
It will end your pain and mine
What a way to end the life of a canine

I can't watch you die
I let out a heavy sigh
I saw you release your final breath
I closed my eyes and accepted your death

I am the one to give you the stars
When you have the skies.
I am the one who will watch you sleep
And feel the miracle when you breathe.
I am the one who will block fire
In your obnoxious world.
I am the one to give you flowers
Even if you have bounty gardens.
I am the one who will make you happy
Even if you don't need me to.
I am the one who's willing to pain
herself & others for your happiness.
I am the one to see the pain in your eyes
And hate myself for it.
I am the one who caused them to you
Then vow to ease the pain.
I am the one who will dedicate herself
To your happiness
Until the last day
Comes.

This is my place of sanity
Away from these toxicity
This may look like mess but really,
I find everything in clarity

Writing empty words on paper
Unsaid thoughts from ponder
I would even consider
Writing feelings that I uncover

I used to have a happy place
Beside you where I can see your face
A touch of your hand, glimpse of your smile
Makes everything worthwhile

Years passed and a lot has changed
Once in awhile I still feel strange
Now I have a new book to age
Its time to turn the page

I guess now its clear to see
All the things we could never be
But I'll give you a piece of honesty
That you will always be my sanctuary

ACS Svelte Rogue
31/01/2016

I miss you.
It's been a year now.
I wish you didn't have to leave.
I wish you lived.
I'm leaving, too.
But not to see you yet.
I'll just be in a place away from here.
Guide me.
Be my angel.
Never a day passed that I didn't miss you.
I miss you more today.
Everyday.
Always.
Let my love reach heaven.
I love you, Matthew.
I love you, brother.

Mas mabuti pang ilibing
Kaysa maligaw
Mas mabuti pa nakikita ang sarili sa ilalim
Kaysa hindi makita ang sarili kahit kailan
Oo nga't ako ang naghukay ng lupa,
Ako itong kusang pumasok.
Ako ang naglibing sa sarili ko.
Ngunit sinipa mo ako paloob.
Tinabunan mo ng lupang mas marami pa kaysa nararapat.
Sila itong nagpatong ng limang malalaking bato.
Paniguradong wala na akong aahunan.
Paniguradong hindi na ako makakabangon s apagkakamatay.
Hindi pa napanatag at may ahas na pinagpilitan.
Ipasok, gumapang, pinagsiksikan.
Tinabihan ako, hinalikan
Inikot ang ulo at dahan dahang pinalibutan ang aking leeg.
Hindi ako lumalaban, hindi ako pumalag.
Hanggang kailan niyo papatayin ang namatay na?
Hanggang kailan niyo didiligan ng dugo ang lupang basa?
Hanggang kailan ako mamamatay?


**Svelte Rogue