I dreamed somebody wanted Me
And not just as a friend
I dreamed someone desired me
My broken heart to mend
I dreamed I wasn't all alone
I had someone to hold
I dreamed I wasn't so **** shy
Dreamed I just could be bold
Dreamed that I were more attractive
Dreamed I had what it takes
I dreamed I had that special charm
So I could get a date
I dreamed someone just wanted me
So I could be happy

I so wish to not be.
To not be anymore
Tired of being lonely
Can't take it anymore
Tired of the rejections
Won't ever be desired
I'm tired of this life
And wish it be retired
I am nobody's type
I am no one's *******
Though I just keep trying
I'm running out of steam
I wish this life would end
To spare me all this pain
No matter how I try
It all seems just in vain
So I wish to not be
And not be anymore

What the hell is wrong with me
Why won't anyone date me
Am I cursed or too ugly
Something must be wrong with me
Always doomed to the friendzone
Or just ghosted and alone
Just too nice for my own good
Or else just misunderstood
Dying of this loneliness
Questioning my manliness
Im constantly rejected
Feels like I am infected
Always lacking in what counts
Hurting enormous amounts
Wish this pain would go away
Can't take it another day
I just need someone to hold
Instead of alone and cold
What the hell is wrong with me

The crickets have stopped chirping
I don't hear them anymore
My heart now lies here broken
Scattered all across the floor
Thought you were the one for me
As i fell for you so hard
Really hoped you'd be the one
But my heart now lies here scarred
Friendzoned into the abyss
Preventing all advances
Wish I knew where I messed up
I just never stood a chance

When i hear the crickets chirp
I wonder if it you
I hope it's you that's texting me
I really hope it's you
I wonder how your days has been
And hope that it's been good
I wonder what your doing now
And hope you're doing good
I think about your lovely smile
And your pretty eyes
I think about our future date
And give a loving sigh
When i hear my cell phone ring
I hope that it is you
I love the sound of your sweet voice
I love talking to you
And when I hear the cricket chirp
I so hope that it's you.

**** all you who rush to judge me
When you all don't even know me
**** all of you doubters out there
And those who just pretend to care
**** all you ******* hypocrites
With your intentions counterfeit
*******, you're really not my friend
When you back stab me in the end
******* who play with my feelings
Could care less for my well being
**** this world I'm so sick of it
And the bullies who control it
So ******* and your little lies
Now here is my final reprise
**** all you who rush to judge me
You don't even ******* know me!

Another weekend home alone
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend i'm up late
Trying to find myself a date
Another weekend all dejected
Feeling lost and so rejected
Another weekend full of tears
The same as it has been for years
Another weekend in my head
So ******* completely wasted
Another weekend gone and blown
Another weekend all alone