Blasting music in my ears
All of my emotions disappear
Turn the volume up, can't hear a thing
I don't care that it makes my head ring

I need to cry
I want to cry
So why won't the tears flow?

The darkness hides in plain sight
It has realised that i won't fight
Reaching fiercely as i might
My outstretched hand can't touch the light.

*******
It's not my fault that Nan is ****** with you
Don't project your anger onto me

I sit here
And I'm overwhelmed with happiness
So I don't know why the tears in my eyes feel wrong

Hate feeling like this
The dried tear stains on my face
I smile anyway

A wheel inside my heart spinning so fast it makes me dizzy
And the farther away he gets
The faster it spins
As if there is an invisible chord un-reeling from it
Stretching the distance between us
A real connection
I dont know what i would do
If the chord ever snaps

My body is a canvas now
I need to express my feelings somehow
But where do i put
These little red lines tonight?

On my wrists?
On my thighs?
On my stomach?
Where?

Behind my knees?
Behind my arm?
Behind my back?
Where?

Where would bring me the most pain?
Where would be the easiest to conceal?
For not everyone understands my art.
And so i must keep it hidden.

You looked cute today
Why do you do this to me
You don't look my way.

It sounds like someone
Is knocking on my window
If there is anyone there
Please go away

Vines are so funny
This ***** is empty, YEET, lol
Why am i like this

You are what i have always wanted
You wear the face i wish to have
You live the life i work so hard for
You love someone who loves you

You are carefree and strong willed
You fit into clothes i'll never be able to
You make anything look achieveable
You laugh so easily

And

You dont even know it