We watch with disenchanted eyes
As the future comes to pass us by
What once brought joy
Is revealed as lies
And brings to light
The turmoil inside
We stagnate in our hollow lives
Lost from us are the enthusiastic drives
A dark cloud to eclipse the sun
Our childhood illusions
Have come undone
A restless soul in human guise
Dreams of freedom slowly die
With heavy hearts and severed ties
We see a future with blackened skies
And in the dark we see
A life lead in melancholy
We travel the world as ghosts
Untouched like waves on the coast
We glimpse the night
Through jaded eyes
And a world brought to fright
As we fall asleep to silent cries

I am more than just my body
Or numbers on a scale
I am more than those grades
That say I pass or fail
I am more than just my body
Not a meaningless piece of flesh
I am more to this world
But am judged none the less
I am more than just my body
I have a mind and a soul;
A heart that can be broken or made whole
I am more than just my body
Not an object for your use,
Your jeers, taunts and verbal abuse
I am more than just my body
Not a toy meant to amuse
I am more than just my body
My face or my size
More than a conquest or a prize
I am more than just my body
I love myself for the person in which I grew
And here's a secret,
I am more than just my body
And so are you.

Angels fall in painful silence
Feathers fall in slow descent
The downy rain with no pretense
Coats the earth in a soft blanket
Like snow it falls.
Crimson stains the downy surface.
First the white now the red.
Blood it falls as war goes on.
Light against dark, good against evil,
Right against wrong.
Where is the line between the two?
What is light and dark?
No visible difference to discern
Both believe they are in the right
But to their origin they return.
There is no black or white, good or evil,
Right or wrong
There is only nature, it’s a double edged sword
Dangerous on both sides.
You cannot destroy one without destroying the other.
Balance is lost, pain is red
But who are they to say what to feel?
Death closes in on ebony wings
Angel of sorrow, Angel of fear, oh
Angel of death. I welcome your
Embrace. I long to escape the war
Infested world drowned in sorrow and blood.
Death is the only release.
I lie here dying, dying but unable to die.
What is this? This curse of immortality?
I long for a mortal life, a mortal death.
Fate it seems is cruel too in its nature
For I will watch many fall before I do.
Angels fall and demons reign
Death upon death.
Pain upon pain.
Just surrender
To give into death. They have won
Demons reign supreme
Many fear what this will mean
Head my words, take my advice,
To surrender is pointless,
To die is meaningless,
To live is to suffer.

My hearts a pool of acid
My tears are shards of glass
I sit in the darkness
As time goes flying past.
I watch in silence
I can't breathe
As my world collapses
Was it all just make-believe?
A series of lies?
Lies I told myself
Were they your design?
Was this the plan?
Manipulate my mind
And twist my soul
So when you were done
I was no longer whole?
A shadow of who I was
A specter in my life
Floating through the cacophony
The despair
I'm Drowning now
Drown in the waves of regret
Waves of words unsaid.
To the bottom of this sea
A place with no air and nothing to touch or see
Was it me or you?
The one who took the leap
Or the one that fell?
I remember
Though you may not
A time of love
A time of friendship
But before I knew it
You were gone
Sand through my fingers
Only a recent all too painful past.
My souls' sister
It ended all so fast
Fading like a dream
You dissolve into fading memories
Your back to me, You walk into the abyss
Disappearing and soon,
You're gone
Gone is the laughter
The joy and love
Apathy remains
I wear it as a mask
To hide my secret pain
The truth of my misery
No solace to be gained
My shouts go unheard
The bridge begins to crumble
I can't speak a word.
The tears fall unbidden
I cannot stem the flow
I collapse down in agony
As I'm forced to watch you go
Come back to me
I beg you not leave
You watch my tears
with passive eyes unstrained
You know my pain
but you make no sound
No movement.
Did I mean so little?
Cast aside without a thought
I see now why
The answers that I sought
Lay before me glowing pale in the dark
Help me I plead the shadows
They cover me in a blanket of silence
Quieting my rampaging thoughts
I hear no sound
Feel no sensation or pain
All is still...
Have I disappeared?
Faded into nothing?
I feel no pain
No Tears
No joy
No bliss
No dark thoughts to plague my mind
My souls' sister I see it now
My life without you
Cutting through the inky black
Bright and pure
Full of fire and life
To fight the shadows you had brought
I face the light
I am stronger now
And I'm ready to fight

Your broken words and blatant lies
Use to cut me like a thousand knives
I sit wondering what I did wrong
When it was you who hurt me all along
Your toxic breath soaked with sin
Betrays the monster deep within
Disguised you hide in the form of a friend
And slowly try to make me bend
Your words are venom your tears are tricks
And seeing you makes me physically sick
You manipulate as you please
And get mad when I don’t bend a knee
Your selfish act has destroyed my life
And with an indifferent air, you ignore the strife
My heart has hardened I no longer bleed
From your words of hurt and self-satisfied need
You bruise too easily, or so you say
But I’m done letting you have your way.
Knock me down I don’t care
But you hurt my family and you better beware
You destroy all you touch
And wonder why people leave when it gets too much.
Darkness stains your soul
Your broken and not completely whole.
I’m done I’ve had enough
I don’t have time to hear your rebuff
Your petty heart and conniving mind
Make you think that I am blind.
Blind to the games that you play.
But eventually, you will have to pay.
Pay the price of your egocentric lies
Because I will no longer internalize
All the pain you made me feel.
I wish I never met you
I wish that you weren’t real.
I have no sympathy for you
Or your narcissistic ways.
I couldn’t describe the grief you caused
Even in One Thousand days.
Your heart is empty
Your mind is ill
You care of no one but yourself
And you never will.
So now I say goodbye to you and your vexatious words
And walk away from your theater of the absurd