My hearts a pool of acid My tears are shards of glass I sit in the darkness As time goes flying past. I watch in silence I can't breathe As my world collapses Was it all just make-believe? A series of lies? Lies I told myself Were they your design? Was this the plan? Manipulate my mind And twist my soul So when you were done I was no longer whole? A shadow of who I was A specter in my life Floating through the cacophony The despair I'm Drowning now Drown in the waves of regret Waves of words unsaid. To the bottom of this sea A place with no air and nothing to touch or see Was it me or you? The one who took the leap Or the one that fell? I remember Though you may not A time of love A time of friendship But before I knew it You were gone Sand through my fingers Only a recent all too painful past. My souls' sister It ended all so fast Fading like a dream You dissolve into fading memories Your back to me, You walk into the abyss Disappearing and soon, You're gone Gone is the laughter The joy and love Apathy remains I wear it as a mask To hide my secret pain The truth of my misery No solace to be gained My shouts go unheard The bridge begins to crumble I can't speak a word. The tears fall unbidden I cannot stem the flow I collapse down in agony As I'm forced to watch you go Come back to me I beg you not leave You watch my tears with passive eyes unstrained You know my pain but you make no sound No movement. Did I mean so little? Cast aside without a thought I see now why The answers that I sought Lay before me glowing pale in the dark Help me I plead the shadows They cover me in a blanket of silence Quieting my rampaging thoughts I hear no sound Feel no sensation or pain All is still... Have I disappeared? Faded into nothing? I feel no pain No Tears No joy No bliss No dark thoughts to plague my mind My souls' sister I see it now My life without you Cutting through the inky black Bright and pure Full of fire and life To fight the shadows you had brought I face the light I am stronger now And I'm ready to fight
I recently went through the end of an 8 year friendship due to anothers interference and I have had a hard time working through it. I wrote this as a form of therapy to try and help.