He tells me he doesn't like relationships.
But maybe it's just with me.
He tells me he doesn't like commitment.
But maybe it's just me.
He tells me he doesn't like being tied down.
But I cut the ropes.
He tells me doesn't like titles.
But he told me a book is defined by theirs.
He tells me I'm beautiful.
But he didn't make me believe it.
He tells me he loves me.
But maybe he doesn't.

I gave my childhood
to pain.
I gave years to something
that did not deserve it.
I gave my happiness to it
to instead of giving
it to myself.
I’ve been buying time on a
maxed out credit card.
My body is scarred
from trying to pay down the debit.

Lost happiness
and lasting pain torments.
I can't tell you how long
you will have to search
to find the lost happiness,
because I'm still searching
for it
myself.
What I can tell you
is that you aren't
alone.

What I prefer is a paradox
I prefer flowers,
but I am not the kind of girl that you give them to.
I prefer to come alive at night,
yet I'm afraid of the dark.
I prefer to have a blank mind,
but most of the time thy does not happen.
I prefer to talk
but I say nothing important.
I prefer having a wild heart
but I'm trapped in a cage.
I prefer being full of love
but I won't give it anymore.
I prefer blue eyes
yet I fell for brown.
I prefer my own company
yet I hate being alone.
I prefer being complicated
but I'm easy to figure out.
I prefer to walk,
but I want to be swept off my feet.
I prefer oxygen,
but he takes my breath away.
I prefer black
yet like yellow.
Silence is golden
but I prefer silver.
I prefer noise in a world that is deaf yet I remain

silent.

You're like a phosphorescent phish,
swimming quickly through my brain
Leaving trails of glitter to slowly filter through my veins
I'd rather dream in black and white
But you prefer the color blue
So I'm stuck with aqua daydreams
'Cause all I dream about is you.