The one thing our society fears the most in intangible
It is not rejection, nor hatred, nor even flaws although
All three have been made out to be terrifying
By the world we live in
It is the one thing we fight to evade most of all
The single thing we are so afraid of experiencing
And giving in to
The sole thing we cannot understand fully
And are petrified by the idea of it dominating us…

Emotions

…please don’t ever be afraid of feeling.

(Aye Dougie, Dougie you aight kid? Dougie!)

(Fade into me singing)

Imma tell the truth and the whole truth, cause there ain't no need to lie, and I ain't tryna keep it all inside...so I gotta testify for you and I...I testify..

Why lie! Maybe it's every guy, who's left her deprived, of every lost  moment she holds inside.
Baby, don't hide, don't cry, I promise I'm so different
It's her strength, it's my pain keeping us so disant
So much resistance
Yet, we're a perfect match
We left eachother once, but destiny brought us back
Cause you're stubborn, so am I
But girl, over time
You'll see what we do for eachother is unlike anything that rhymes,
the melody matches and sounds smooth...
Why can't I be her main dude?
I'm tryna get to know you
Please help me get through
I know it's easier to walk alone, but
Babe let me walk with you.

(Time to talk Dougie)

It seems fools never know what they want
and the certain think they can get what they can't have
I like her. I want her. I miss her.
Now tell me, is that truly something bad?
to be hoping to see her name as you wait on a "good morning" text
missing the way she would lay in your arms without any intentions of trying to have ***.
It was the feelings of having someone who just wanted you around.
It's the feeling we all search for, right? being wanted, thought about...picked up when you're down.
The feeling you can't control and never see coming
I just needed to say this ****t out loud, it was time for me to say something..

(Paused moment)

Crazy that was about a month ago..

Why must a good thing never last?
mine hit me like a blind sided accident...I guess I didn't look and she was going fast.
The past is now the past.
I wish I could trade in all the chances I missed, to help make something I truly enjoyed, last.

(Inner thoughts! Get her, dougie)

She's a wish after the candle, the angel you can't handle, a promise you want to keep, perfection...amazing in every angle.
Independent and doesn't need ya
One of a kind and a keeper,
Girl look in the mirror, you're a prize
If he ain't right, better leave em

(Phase 2, lil more Dougie)

****, I didn't want her to think I was just like every other man...
Wanted to be more than just a moment in her plans.
But I confess up, I messed up, let my heart just take over.
Should of slowed up the pace, kept that smile on her face... the old me is what sold her.

(What else?)

I remember every moment, every smile, every thing and hope you know I have nothing but the up most respect.
You've taught me so much more than you'd ever know, all amazing things and I wouldn't expect anything less.
Sorry for not being better than your past... more tranquility, less stress
I just want you to always find peace, passion and happiness...with your career, your life and all the good that may come next. (even love)
what else would you expect?

(**** kid)

Just remember people
If something made you truly happy, you should never have any regrets.

(Finish to her, kid)

Never hesitate from giving your all...more individuals would be happy today if they dropped their pride

"I don't miss her, I don't want her, I don't care...let her go"

(What!?)

Please, Oh Yeah,
p.s; I lied.

(Knew that wasn't true, hope you get her kid)

There are three simple words
that can make me,
that can break me.
Three words that
anyone can say.
The speaker of those words
immediately has power over me
as soon as the words
leave their lips.
The words are not
I love you,
but
**** your self.
kys.
three words; **** your self.
two words; **** yourself.
an acronym; kys.
Six months ago,
you could've said that to me
and I would have been
devastated.
I would cry
and scream
and maybe even try.
Today, however,
you could say those words to me,
and I will smile.
I will smile with confidence.
I will smile with sadness,
because you think it is a joke.
For you cannot tell me what to do.
You cannot bring
me down that easily.
I will laugh
because you think
you can hurt me.
Your petty little words
will not even phase me.
Go ahead and joke,
but I will never
EVER
say those words to anyone.
You never know
when someone will
take you seriously.

The beauty I saw in your eyes,  
         Peering into your soul.
It's depths astounded me,
     your poetry amazed me,
Another half to broken pieces made whole.
Yet the pain I saw eluded me,
          it baffled me
   how you could be that sad...
I remember this dream I had,
Where you were in complete despair,
     crying in a corner,
             Tears blood red
I can't remember exactly what you said,
     but it crushed me.
           The next day,
while you were smiling and joking around,
I tried to glimpse deep in your eyes,
          what I found?
Stunned me to tears, after all these years,
          how could I not see?
I think you were about to ask me what was wrong,
            But you realized I discovered what you'd been hiding all along.
I didn't know what to say,
          or how to speak...
Then I saw a grin start to form in the dimple on your cheek.
         You'd fooled me, arrogantly tricked me,
You pulled up your sleeve and grabbed a knife,
              Started slicing away just to torture me,
          Slowly ending my life.

Let me undress your heart,
look upon it's naked curves,
let me give it that jump start,
with feelings that play on your nerves.
Let me love you and feel you,
holding you close to me,
between us electric shocks flew,
like a defibrillator,
resurrecting our lives,
into the one we once knew.

Rough ,Wet, Make it hurt
Sore in the morning
No time to flirt
No love, no whispers
Not even a kiss
Like animals, Mechanical
Tasting this
Bruises, teeth marks,
hickeys, thirst
*******, licking, Harder, grinding
The spot, Almost
Screaming, finding
Spasm, tightening
******, blinding

When you're putting on a mask
Running blindly from the past
I'll be here waiting
Always waiting for you

When your cheeks burn from smiling
And your eyes burn from secret crying
I'll be here waiting
Always waiting for you

When your heart is surely broken
By the one that you had chosen
I'll be here waiting
Always waiting for you

When all your days seem hopeless
And living is just pointless
I'll be here waiting
Always waiting for you

When you finally need a new love
To replace the one you're tired of
I'll be here waiting
Always waiting for you

But one day I must pass
For nothing ever lasts
And up there I'll be waiting
Always waiting for you