I was fire, you were ice
You said you'd never crack

I'd like to think you did
Under the flames o' mine

We thought we'd reached equilibrium
Until things got uncomfortable

Fiery as I, bitter as you
We summon blows

I am fire, you are ice
People say opposites attract

We thought the same
Yet we never saw each other again

You know what?
One of my biggest fears is…
Drowning.
Suffocating from all the
Pain and suffering.
Struggling to breathe.
Struggling to move.
Struggling to stay alive.

You know that moment
When you hold that weapon
In your hand, and you just
Think to yourself,
No one would even know
That you’re gone.
No one will ever understand
How much it hurts.

My vision is tunnelling
My mind is echoing
My body is collapsing

I isolate myself from friends
I have no motivation to go to school
I can barely get out of bed,
Let alone go to sleep.

I have a heart
That nobody owns.
Pride and honour
Stripped from my bones.

The truth always hiding
Behind close curtains
Heavy burdens
Open doors
Chaotic wars

Demons drag me back forever  
Shadows surround me wherever
I want to be with her, however,
Whatever.

Drives of pain,
Stress stuck in this brain
Of mine
Not owned
I try not to cry
I’m fine.

Punches thrown
Like rain hitting a puddle.
I want to curl up
And cuddle.

They keep coming back.
It’s like ******.
Vision narrowing
Demons echoing

Master of disguise
Deception
Of all the lies
Perception.

Silence is all they see.
Crying for help.
Wounds so deep.
Smiling for them.
So they can be reassured
That I’m cured.

I am small.
I am weak.
I am lonely.
Doesn’t mean that
I have no one next to me.

Happy during the day.
Sad at night.
I don’t want to
Disturb you.
I don’t want to
Interrupt you.

When they ask you what’s wrong
But you can’t explain.
Or they don’t say a word.
I don’t know which is worse.

I isolate myself on purpose.
I don’t want to bother you.
I hate myself.
Leave me alone.

Hug me and
Tell me that
Things will be okay.
That I’ll live to see tomorrow,
Let alone the rest of today.

I’m good at what I do
I’m good at hiding
Hiding it from all of you
You believe I’m happy
That I’ve had a good week.
Sorry to disappoint you
Like I’ve done in the past;
Depression is the only thing alive in me.